List Rearrangement

Just when you think you have things figured out, BOOM! The game changes. AGAIN.

Vince is still wonderful. Everyone likes Vince, and thinks he is my best bet, but I don't know exactly what his thoughts/intentions are with me. "B" and I met IRL, and he is quite possibly the best-looking guy I have ever seen in my LIFE. I couldn't believe he was with me. Even other women in the bar couldn't help but stare at him. It made me nervous. Although all of our text/email conversations were comfortable, cool and promising, the date was a little awkward and I don't think it is going to happen again. I think there may have been drool dripping from my mouth. I also think he may be one of those guys with arrested development (emotionally), and I can't deal with another one. Plus I'm not sure he is still interested anyway.

John. The enigma wrapped in an anomaly. Talked for an hour on Sunday. He has been acting totally different with me for the last month (more intense and attentive) and just when I start moving him off the list, he creeps back up into the running. Damn him! I have so much history with John, it is hard to ignore.  I cannot turn off feelings. I cannot stay mad at him.

So, to sum up, down to 2 guys, and I have no clue what to do or what will happen.

Vince, Homemade Guacamole & Cabernet

Vince, my most adorable new friend. :-)  He is a professional musician, and I get to witness greatness in action! I went over to his house (a townhome in Irvine) and he made homemade guacamole and served us cabernet in little plastic cups. LOL! Good times. He is a little odd, but totally sweet and easy to hang with.

Replacement Players

Things change around here weekly. Well, daily actually. John has moved to the bottom of the list, and I have not totally decided what I'm going to do with him. I am really frustrated, and I need to grow a spine. Screw love feelings. He is on thin ice. I went out with "W" today for a nice dinner down by the beach, but I'm afraid I'm not "feeling it". He is a nice man, but I'm really picky, and he showed up in a dirty work uniform and seemed unkempt. Bah. I guess surfers are out. Vince is good, but he is now competing for top spot with "B". "B" isn't new, but there were a few weeks where we didn't email/talk, so I thought he was gone, but I was wrong. So, we'll see what happens with all of them. Men are a pain in the ass.

Yes I am a big, huge, awful slacker with no excuse.

But I'm gonna try to give you an excuse anyway. I've been busy juggling 3 guys? Is that a good justification? No? Darn. I really have been super busy, though. Work has their impossible deadlines again, and it takes concentration not to get my boys mixed up. :-)

No matter how many guys come and go from my life, I can't seem to give up John. When I start seeing someone new, my mom asks "What are you going to tell John?" My heart kind of skips a beat when she says that, and I realize the torch is still burning. I'm not going to tell him anything. Not unless I decide to commit to someone for real, or if for some strange reason JOHN ever decides to commit to me. He frustrates the ever-lovin' shit outta me, but just when I am about to give up on him, he does or says something incredibly sweet that I'm not expecting. I don't know if he is a genius or just lucky. (Not that being with me constitutes luck.)

I met "V" a few weeks ago. He is this completely adorable professional jazz musician who has a house 5 minutes from me. He is more refined; likes fine wine and spends a lot of money taking me out to eat, but he travels a lot. Then there is "W", a local surfer from Huntington Beach. Really sweet, nice bod, and likes horror movies. All three men are very different from one another.

I am having V over for dinner probably sometime this week since he rarely gets a home-cooked meal, W and I are going to dinner on the beach on Wednesday, and John might be coming over to spend all day Saturday with me. Or not. Who knows. I never in my life thought I could be "this girl". Now I'm not a slut or anything, I'm being a somewhat good girl here, just seeing who I really connect with, if anyone. It's exhausting! And confusing! But lots of fun.