But I'm gonna try to give you an excuse anyway. I've been busy juggling 3 guys? Is that a good justification? No? Darn. I really have been super busy, though. Work has their impossible deadlines again, and it takes concentration not to get my boys mixed up. :-)
No matter how many guys come and go from my life, I can't seem to give up John. When I start seeing someone new, my mom asks "What are you going to tell John?" My heart kind of skips a beat when she says that, and I realize the torch is still burning. I'm not going to tell him anything. Not unless I decide to commit to someone for real, or if for some strange reason JOHN ever decides to commit to me. He frustrates the ever-lovin' shit outta me, but just when I am about to give up on him, he does or says something incredibly sweet that I'm not expecting. I don't know if he is a genius or just lucky. (Not that being with me constitutes luck.)
I met "V" a few weeks ago. He is this completely adorable professional jazz musician who has a house 5 minutes from me. He is more refined; likes fine wine and spends a lot of money taking me out to eat, but he travels a lot. Then there is "W", a local surfer from Huntington Beach. Really sweet, nice bod, and likes horror movies. All three men are very different from one another.
I am having V over for dinner probably sometime this week since he rarely gets a home-cooked meal, W and I are going to dinner on the beach on Wednesday, and John might be coming over to spend all day Saturday with me. Or not. Who knows. I never in my life thought I could be "this girl". Now I'm not a slut or anything, I'm being a somewhat good girl here, just seeing who I really connect with, if anyone. It's exhausting! And confusing! But lots of fun.
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