Sunday, April 29, 2012

Brandi's Birthday BBQ

Went to my friend Brandi's house for her birthday BBQ - we work together.  She is dating my boss, which is so convenient for me!  LOL!  They are both really great, and I had a good time.  She has 3 German Shepherds and 3 cats now (One of her Shepherds just got adopted).  They are sooo sweet!
One of Brandi's babies - Conan.  They run the house.

Brandi and Conan

Brandi's BBQ'd Chicken

My boss!  I'm so lucky.  :-)

Brandi and her other baby.  ;-)

Monday, April 23, 2012

Perspective

On the way home from work tonight, I got RIGHT behind a horrific accident on 405 - in the middle lane. And I mean horrific - the car was unrecognizable and there was a guy laying on the freeway. Help arrived in seconds, literally, but it gave me flashbacks of my law enforcement days and arriving on scenes just like this one. I have the unique ability to detatch emotionally and stay calm in a crisis, but you still take it with you. I don't know the extent of the injuries, but it couldn't have been good. My heart goes out to the everyone involved and their families. It could have been me. How we take our lives for granted.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Life

No matter how good things are, there is always something bringing me down.  Why?  Is this just life?  Is there something wrong with me?  Does this only happen to me?  I have so many things to be thankful for.  My health, a great job, all my bills paid, a beautiful home with a pool, a cute dog, great family and friends who love me, the list goes on and on.  I guess I'm just frustrated.  I think I am mad at myself for letting someone into my heart.  I know he let me in too, but things just get so complicated when you get older.  So many things to consider.  Why is it so damn easy to express yourself and be carefree about love when you're young?  If we could only have the enthusiasm of youth again!  The boldness, the resilience, the fearlessness!

I don't know what is going to happen.  Not even a clue.  I meet and talk to men all the time.  I send some of them running with my strong personality and inability to be controlled, and some of them become good friends.  There is only one that has taken up residence in my heart.  I know how he feels, and I think he is even more afraid than I am.  It is so silly.  What are we so afraid of?

Monday, April 09, 2012

Easter Garden

I played with my camera this weekend in the backyard.  It was beautiful and in the 80's all three of my days off, and I enjoyed every second of it.  I also laid in the sun, went swimming and went to see my step son in a play up in L.A.  It was a good weekend to get my head together and relax, however I managed to fall right on my ass -- lock, stock and barrel, while walking around Hollywood.  I had on wedges, and the sidewalk was full of potholes and cracks.  I was of course carrying a big iced mocha, and wearing white went I went sailing onto the pavement.  Ouch.  Can't take me anywhere.



This is the grapefruit/orange tree in my backyard.  I put it on my computer desktop as 'wallpaper" and my mom said "Why do you have a picture of rotten fruit as wallpaper?"  LOL

The roses are in full bloom - so pretty!