Laguna Beach

After morning coffee, my mom suggested going to Laguna Beach for the day! Hot damn! I love that woman. LOL.

Laguna is the best beach around here, in my opinion, with its beautiful cliffs and artsy shopping.

View from the bed.

Look at that sunshine! My mom's dog (Molly) apparently decided to sleep with me, aww. Today's agenda: Lay in the sun, swim, order my favorite pizza and LOVE EVERY MINUTE OF IT.

On the Plane

Getting ready for takeoff! Whee! I know, I'm weird.

At the Airport

Well, here I am at the airport. These places don't do good things for my anxiety. Right now, I'm chugging down a double rum and coke in the airport sports bar by myself. That should help. Taking pictures of myself while doing said task must seem weird to others, but documenting my life play-by-play online seems to be my new normal. (Sad, right?) I'm sort of smiling in one of the pictures, that should make some of you happy. I'm excited. I like trips. I just caught a glimpse of the news and the wildfires in California look bad. My mom said the ash looks like snow. Neat. Time to board! More later.

Emotional Sap

I'm a huge emotional sap in my old age. After I left the mall last night, my friend from work called me and told me she missed me already and that a couple people fell apart after I left. It made me feel so good that I will be missed. It was an incredible place to work with some very talented and great people. I started balling in the car on my way home.

Today will be filled with packing. I leave on a late flight tonight. California, here I come!

Mall Hell

I spent my gift certificate rather quickly. It wasn't difficult.

Buying stuff helps the sadness. Here is my new bag of beauty products and an iced mocha (of course). Don't you say a word, Nichole.

Oh, and by the way HOLE, I just bought some sexy damn underwear, and you can thank your lucky stars I'm not sitting here taking a picture of each one. I should. I haven't bought an undergarment with lace on it for a long-ass time. I'm proud of myself.

Farewell Lunch

Wow, I just had a great last lunch with a dear co-worker. We got really personal, and I shared some things almost no one knows. It felt good to talk to someone about them! She shared too and this makes it even harder to leave, unfortunately, but I know now that we'll keep in touch. She had some great advice, too. I am going to miss her.

Traffic Fun

Traffic is fun, I love it. No smiling right now. So many roads are closed this morning due to the flooding, and it is causing a nightmare commute. Bah. I'm going shopping today after my last day of work. That might make me smile. Although I HATE malls, I DO have a $100 gift certificate to spend!

Frowny McGrumpy

I've been asked to post a picture of me smiling. Apparently, I'm Frowny McGrumpy. I guess I've been in a poopy mood for a decade or so, sorry. Things aren't THAT terrible I suppose, I'm just sad a lot, and restless, and anxious, and well, you get the point. It's been a while since I felt smiley.

My last day at work tomorrow will no doubt be emotional. Some people there are really close friends of mine. I am going to feel very lonely until I can make some friends at the new job. I'm a little shy when I start a new job, and since I'm a temporary contract this time, who knows if anyone will want to bother making friends with me.

I'll try to take a picture of me smiling, OK? Gimme something to smile about internet people.

The Flooding Continues

That is not a lake, it is a farm field. Nice, huh? The flooding is insane right now. I'm constantly worried the bridge will be flooded out by house, and I won't be able to get home.

I want my coffee.

Here is my grumpy face waiting in line for coffee. I'm late for work because of the flooding. Oh well. My second to last day, then off to California! I don't have to start my new job until December, so that will be nice too. It will be a much-needed break.

Oh, and for those asking, no, I didn't do anything exciting for my birthday last night. I came home early, watched TV, ate a steak and went to bed. Thrilling, huh?

The Mrs. Butterworth Scandal

Have you noticed how Mrs. Butterworth doesn't have big boobs anymore? What the hell?

Flooding in Sultan, WA

Will I make it home?

ACK! The only road to my house is flooding. I am promptly leaving work (at the end of the audit) to see if I can make it. Shit!

Happy Birthday?

I'm kinda sad today. I know you are supposed to be happy on your birthday, but I have a lot of extenuating circumstances that have put a damper on it. Oh well, I'm going to try and make the best of it.

37 is the New 21

Well, I just officially turned 37. Show me the presents! FYI: 37 is the new 21. Just so you know.

CrazyDogMama Mad Libs

This is for all my nosy readers who don't like it when I'm "cryptic" in my posts.

1. Get over it.

2. I really, really love ________.

3. I want to _________ on a ________.

4. _______ is my obsession.

5. Late at night when I'm feeling restless, I __________.

6. If you ever meet me, I will ________________, and you'll love it.

7. When people tell me how and what to write in my blog without being asked I ___________.

8. Kiss my _____.

9. If I don't get ________, I will ___________.

10. I really want and gotta have ___________.

11. __________ is the ___________ of my life.


Love, Crazydogmama

Tidbits from my fragmented brain.

1. It is time for a break because about every 3rd minute I am staring off into space forgetting what I'm doing.

2. I am way tired.

3. I would do anything for a full body massage right now. With a glass of something on the side.

4. I'm starting not to care.

5. I am obsessing about something I shouldn't be obsessing about.

6. I think it is due time for something spectacular to happen to me. I'm waiting and ready.

7. I don't know what I'm going to do for dinner while I'm at work.

8. I don't know what time I'm going home.

9. I have a hole in my sock, and it is driving me batshit.

10. I need new underwear.

11. I'm still restless. And I don't like it.

12. I'm not looking forward to the holidays this year. Because of all the death in the last year. I probably won't talk about the holidays much this year. Just so you know.

14. Oh somebody please help me for God's sake, I've lost my mind.

Time Warp

Well, that was stupid. I started getting ready at 3 am, then decided to "lay back down for a few minutes" and didn't wake back up until 6 am. What a retard.

3 AM

I'm getting up. It's 3 am. I'm going to take a shower and get ready for work. I thought about it for a while and came up with an answer to my work behavior and left it in the last comment. Now if I could figure out one last thing I'd be in great shape! That's a complicated one though. At least I get to go to Cali on Sat, that will be fun. It's a nice escape. I'll think of it as a birthday trip.

Understanding Myself

Sorry guys. I've had a headache all day and never even made it to work. Now I'm stressed and will have to probably pull an all-nighter at work tomorrow. I don't know why I care so much, but I do. There are many things I don't understand about myself, and because of that it has been a bizarre weekend emotion-wise. I think I need to give up on understanding myself. I'll just roll with it. LOL.

Head Clutter

Trying to get some sleep. I actually need to go into work tomorrow to get things ready for the audit next week. Blah. I can't sleep. DAMNIT. Figures. Too much on my mind. I don't understand why I can't get certain things out of my head. Maybe I should slam myself with a 2x4.

Being Social

Since my restlessness was bugging me to no end, I decided to have some girly friends over to distract me. They brought food (bless them), and we socialized while doing stuff. Marianne worked on her scrapbook, Sandy knitted, and I installed software on my new laptop. I'm a freak, I know, but it's more fun to do that stuff with people around. Good times.

Xanax to go, please.

My mom said I need this T-shirt she saw:

"I'll take an extra large double mocha, a side of vodka and a Xanax to go please."

She knows me well. LOL. Gimme!

Hair Do

I'm trying a different hair do. I want to buy some of those pretty beaded hair sticks, the ones that look like fancy chop sticks. How's that for an exciting post?

Restless Secrets

I am very restless today in a certain way. But that is all I'm gonna say about that.

Friday Night at Work

I am still at work. On a Friday night. For a company that laid me off. LOL. I guess I just want everything to be right when I go, I am invested financially in this company, and I'm also a perfectionist. Lame, huh?

It doesn't matter anyway; I have no other plans. What? Watch T.V.? Pffft. Also lame. There is no one else here. (That I know of.) Just me. Correcting work that people did for me when I went on vacation.

I ate Thai food for lunch, and it had a spicy rank of 4 out of 5 stars. I. HAVE. TO. QUIT. DOING. THAT. My stomach hurts now. I probably better go home.

Here Comes the Rain

Parts of the town I live in are already flooded. I'm so glad I'm off to California on the 15th. My mom said it's been pretty warm there for November. Hooray! I'm staying for 4 or 5 days before we drive back. I can't believe how many times I've been there this year! Oh, and bonus! Gas is down to $2.39/gallon! I remember not long ago when it reached $5.00 right after 9/11. That was INSANE.

Pizza and Security

Celebration Crazydogmama style! Yes, my diet has gone to holy hell in a handbasket. I'll eat my vegetables tomorrow. Tonight, it's pizza!

An important point came up in the comments, and I love you all for commenting.

Security. Yes, I got a job fast because I have to eat (eating is very important) but I took a chance for the first time in my life on a temporary contract job because I am still thinking of moving. That, and it felt good. I really liked the people I met today, and that is more important to me right now. There are other better paying, more stable jobs being put in front of me, but I don't want to feel stuck. There really is no such thing as security in this life. If there is anything I've learned in the last year, it is that. Life can change on a dime.

Happy Dance!

I got the job despite my chocolate scent!

Today's interview was MUCH different than the first one. This goes to show you (and me) that you can't be too quick to judge. The lady I met with today was SUPER sweet and down to earth, the receptionist was in a good mood and offered me a beverage (I took water since I was on a beverage-spilling roll), and I had a really good feeling about everything. It isn't exactly what I make now, but it's close, and has potential. I would much rather take less money and work in a "family" environment, than make big bucks with corporate bullshit and backstabbing coworkers. The money will come, and I will probably periodically contract for the place I'm at now to help out. So, I'm less stressed now and have something lined up for December 1st. YES! It is a contract job for now, with the potential to hire permanent, but I don't know where I'll be in the future, so this is perfect.

Happy Dance! Cha-Cha-Cha!

Spillage

So what happens to me on the way to work with a second interview scheduled at 11:30?

I go to Starbucks, get a big, iced mocha, and promptly spill it all down the front of me. Awesome.

That isn't a pile of sick, that is whip cream, ice cubes and coffee in a pile on my car floor that fell off of my chest. This is SO my life in a nutshell.

Body Kisses

I got this lotion free when I bought a "high pressure tan". It smells succulent! We wouldn't want our skin to get dried out now, would we? NO! We want to stay soft, supple and kissable. It is called "Body Kisses" by Australian Gold tanning products, for "after" tanning moisturizing. I'm putting this on my favorites list.

I got called in for a second interview from the weird place. You know I'll get that job, right? One must not be too picky or cocky, though, in this recession. It is tomorrow, so let's see what they say. I'm interviewing with a completely different person so it could be a new perspective.

Droopy Eyes & Skull Stickers

Well, here are my droopy eyes and red Rudolph nose from blowing it every 5 seconds. This cold will NOT go away. I also saw this really funky car sticker waiting in line for coffee. You can't see it very well, but it is a skull with black hair in a bob with bangs and two little pink ribbons. Okaaay.

Making History

Well, history was made today, and in that regard it's good, but with all that is going on in the world, I don't envy ANYONE that has to run this country right now. Many of you know I felt neither candidate was experienced enough, nor represented my personal political views, but now that we have a new leader, no matter how we feel personally, we need to get behind him.

'Twas the night before elections.

They played "Eve of Destruction" on the radio on the way home, which made me laugh. As you know, it is a rule of mine NOT to really discuss politics on my blog. I post politically slanted articles once in a while for your consideration that I find interesting, but I think it's blog suicide to do anything more than that. I will say this, though, God help us all. I don't have a good feeling about ANY of this.

I think I'm going to kick back and play some soothing music and dream of better things. MUCH better things. Why don't you do the same?

I think I'm dying.

I'm at the stage in this cold where my phlegm is out of control. I can't lay down flat, it takes me an hour to blow my nose and when I cough it sounds like I'm underwater. It's super sexy. I'm hoping it scares the auditors away quickly. It's scaring everyone else away.

I bought my airline ticket yesterday for California. The day after I'm officially unemployed I'm going down to drive my mom back. But first, I will enjoy a few days down there. Nothing has panned out yet, jobwise. It's getting scary. I'm trying to be brave.

Mystery Phrase

Sorry, I can't tell you the phrase. If I did, you comedians out there who like to mock me would be saying it all over the place. This way its mystery remains absolute. Like love. I'm not willing to compromise that.

I don't mean to frustrate you, but some things in life don't always flow the way you want them to. I live with frustration about some things every day. It can be like some types of pain, it never really goes away, you just learn to live with it.

If the mystery decides to reveal itself to me, I will share then.

Party Pizza

You know what's good at 9:30 am on a Sunday? Party Pizza with Tabasco and Red Pepper Flakes. I will regret it later, but I'm a glutton for punishment.

Common Phrase?

There is a phrase, or a statement, that I've never heard before, that keeps popping up everywhere for me all of a sudden. It is not important for me to tell you what that saying is, but it is really becoming strange. It is not a common phrase I don't think, but different people who don't know each other keep saying it to me, and it is uncharacteristic for all of them! It is also showing up in emails, and other places. It is like someone is trying to tell me something. A sign?

The first couple of times I heard it, I dismissed it as coincidence, but it's getting ridiculous now and I want to know what I'm supposed to do with it.

You're curious now, aren't you?

Some people out there would ignore this kind of thing, or not think too much of it, which I almost did myself, but when it appeared in a very odd email to me tonight, I almost threw my Crackberry across the room. It's bugging me!

Comedians

My boss said the coolest stuff to me yesterday. He said he missed me already and that the second I left they would be "fucked". It brought me to tears. No joke. I had nightmares last night about hating my new job and everyone hating me. I have issues.

Here's a couple of snippets from a comedian I thought was funny:

"If worse comes to worse, we're screwed."

The next time you see a guy pushing 30 carts together through the grocery store parking lot, yell out, "Hey, someone else might want to use one of those!"

"I asked someone, what do you think my dream means? He said it means you were sleeping."

LOL!

Goodbyes are hard.

I have two weeks left, but everyone else had to leave today. Very sad.

Breakfast of Champions

It is an iced mocha and sausage biscuit with cheese kind of morning. I don't care about clogged arteries today. Or any other day for that matter. Fuck it, bring me cheese.

Thelma & Louise

You know what's fun to watch? Thelma and Louise. Sue me, but I love that movie.

So much to do, so little motivation.

The phone interview went well. The lady interviewing me commented that she wasn't supposed to ask me "personal questions" but wanted to ask some (fun ones), so I said, "Sure!" and we chatted and laughed for quite a while. I LIKE THAT! Jobwise they need a lot of controls established, which is my forte! I am supposed to be scheduled for a face-to-face interview in a week or two because the company is crazy-busy (good sign!), so they asked for my patience. I have none of that, but I am pleased with them so far, so OK.

I have never been so busy in all my life. Not even when I had 2 jobs and a scrapbooking business. Seriously. All I feel like I'm doing is running in circles. Phone calls, emails, paperwork, interviews, getting 3 months of work done in two weeks, computer guy coming tomorrow to get files off of my old fried laptop, taking the car in for work, training other people to do my work, buying another airline ticket to go to California to drive my mom back, going to those market research things where they pay you cash for your opinion, ordering dog food, setting up COBRA, getting blood drawn, taking dog to the vet. AAHH!

Sympathy? Anyone?

Cold Hell

This cold/flu thing I've got going on is kicking my butt. You could say I'm in "Cold" hell.  I've been upset and stressed out for so long that my poor little body just can't handle anything. I think we are designed to deal with 'spurts' of stress, not years. I went right to bed last night, no blogging, no TV, no answering the phone.

Anyway, I have another interview today and this is an important one. It is a phone interview, but I'm really interested in this job. Wish me luck.

Miserable

I finally got the cold everyone has. It's lovely. When I bend over, snot FALLS out of my nose. I'm miserable, and what terrific timing! It's fun how the older you get, the harder it is on you. I feel like I can hardly move, and everything seems surreal. Pray it goes away quick, I don't have time for this!

Interview time!

I'm sitting here in my car waiting for the longest train in the history of the world. Might as well blog.

I have an interview today. I'm all dressed up, hair in a French twist. I really hate interviews. I want to waltz in there and tell them just to save time because I can do this job in my sleep and no one else will be as accurate as my anal retentive, perfectionist ass who will make friends with everyone instead of piss off all the engineers like most people in my field do. I hate beating around the bush. Let's just get the job done. Instead, I have to be all politically correct and sell my talents gracefully. Bah!

I'm trying to pull up.

Got some interviews lined up this week. Let's see if any of them want to loosen the purse strings a bit. I'm trying to pull up. It is hard watching your world crash around you. I am just so overwhelmed I can't even think. I have 2 audits to get my company through (just found out about a surprise FDA audit next week, neat) and some of my hopeful prospects are not living up to my expectations. I just can't even GUESS what my future holds right now. I'm trying not to worry about it, but I'm not exactly a Pollyanna kind of person. I'm a bit jaded. I call it realistic. I got an email about a job in Colorado. Interesting. I'll think about it.

Down

I'm really, really down.

My Epic Halloween Party

The epic Halloween party I had!  In order, we have:  Amy & Hole (Beth), Juice (Annie), creepy bathroom, creepy food, Hole (Beth), Melissa, Michael (Jim), crackberry addicts, ping pong, creepy water cooler, and zombie Denin!

Geriatrics

Well, we had fun, I love my friends to death, especially when they are willing to drive so far out to see my craziness, but dude I feel like a geriatric. We were all yawning by 10 pm. LOL. I didn't drink very much; I'm feeling done with that too. I think this will be my last party. I do have some fun pics but I'm too tired, need bed.

CrazyDogMama the Vampire

Vamping out. A few pics of me getting ready. I need a good neck to nibble on, any volunteers?

Parties are Work

Have I mentioned how much work parties are? Holy crap! No one better bail on me or I will hunt you down.

I've been working like a dog getting this place ready! It does look way cool if I do say so myself. There will be lots of pics, so you all who are invited better dress up, because you will be plastered all over the internet one way or another.

The devil in the details.

Re-labeling my wine bottles. Yup, I get that detailed. My parties are serious business!

Decorations are coming together.

A sneak peek at my Halloween party decorations. I haven't even gotten started yet!

Necklace

Like my necklace? I love it! The colors are so pretty.