Understanding Myself

Sorry guys. I've had a headache all day and never even made it to work. Now I'm stressed and will have to probably pull an all-nighter at work tomorrow. I don't know why I care so much, but I do. There are many things I don't understand about myself, and because of that it has been a bizarre weekend emotion-wise. I think I need to give up on understanding myself. I'll just roll with it. LOL.

Head Clutter

Trying to get some sleep. I actually need to go into work tomorrow to get things ready for the audit next week. Blah. I can't sleep. DAMNIT. Figures. Too much on my mind. I don't understand why I can't get certain things out of my head. Maybe I should slam myself with a 2x4.

Being Social

Since my restlessness was bugging me to no end, I decided to have some girly friends over to distract me. They brought food (bless them), and we socialized while doing stuff. Marianne worked on her scrapbook, Sandy knitted, and I installed software on my new laptop. I'm a freak, I know, but it's more fun to do that stuff with people around. Good times.

Xanax to go, please.

My mom said I need this T-shirt she saw:

"I'll take an extra large double mocha, a side of vodka and a Xanax to go please."

She knows me well. LOL. Gimme!

Hair Do

I'm trying a different hair do. I want to buy some of those pretty beaded hair sticks, the ones that look like fancy chop sticks. How's that for an exciting post?

Restless Secrets

I am very restless today in a certain way. But that is all I'm gonna say about that.

Friday Night at Work

I am still at work. On a Friday night. For a company that laid me off. LOL. I guess I just want everything to be right when I go, I am invested financially in this company, and I'm also a perfectionist. Lame, huh?

It doesn't matter anyway; I have no other plans. What? Watch T.V.? Pffft. Also lame. There is no one else here. (That I know of.) Just me. Correcting work that people did for me when I went on vacation.

I ate Thai food for lunch, and it had a spicy rank of 4 out of 5 stars. I. HAVE. TO. QUIT. DOING. THAT. My stomach hurts now. I probably better go home.

Here Comes the Rain

Parts of the town I live in are already flooded. I'm so glad I'm off to California on the 15th. My mom said it's been pretty warm there for November. Hooray! I'm staying for 4 or 5 days before we drive back. I can't believe how many times I've been there this year! Oh, and bonus! Gas is down to $2.39/gallon! I remember not long ago when it reached $5.00 right after 9/11. That was INSANE.

Pizza and Security

Celebration Crazydogmama style! Yes, my diet has gone to holy hell in a handbasket. I'll eat my vegetables tomorrow. Tonight, it's pizza!

An important point came up in the comments, and I love you all for commenting.

Security. Yes, I got a job fast because I have to eat (eating is very important) but I took a chance for the first time in my life on a temporary contract job because I am still thinking of moving. That, and it felt good. I really liked the people I met today, and that is more important to me right now. There are other better paying, more stable jobs being put in front of me, but I don't want to feel stuck. There really is no such thing as security in this life. If there is anything I've learned in the last year, it is that. Life can change on a dime.

Happy Dance!

I got the job despite my chocolate scent!

Today's interview was MUCH different than the first one. This goes to show you (and me) that you can't be too quick to judge. The lady I met with today was SUPER sweet and down to earth, the receptionist was in a good mood and offered me a beverage (I took water since I was on a beverage-spilling roll), and I had a really good feeling about everything. It isn't exactly what I make now, but it's close, and has potential. I would much rather take less money and work in a "family" environment, than make big bucks with corporate bullshit and backstabbing coworkers. The money will come, and I will probably periodically contract for the place I'm at now to help out. So, I'm less stressed now and have something lined up for December 1st. YES! It is a contract job for now, with the potential to hire permanent, but I don't know where I'll be in the future, so this is perfect.

Happy Dance! Cha-Cha-Cha!

Spillage

So what happens to me on the way to work with a second interview scheduled at 11:30?

I go to Starbucks, get a big, iced mocha, and promptly spill it all down the front of me. Awesome.

That isn't a pile of sick, that is whip cream, ice cubes and coffee in a pile on my car floor that fell off of my chest. This is SO my life in a nutshell.

Body Kisses

I got this lotion free when I bought a "high pressure tan". It smells succulent! We wouldn't want our skin to get dried out now, would we? NO! We want to stay soft, supple and kissable. It is called "Body Kisses" by Australian Gold tanning products, for "after" tanning moisturizing. I'm putting this on my favorites list.

I got called in for a second interview from the weird place. You know I'll get that job, right? One must not be too picky or cocky, though, in this recession. It is tomorrow, so let's see what they say. I'm interviewing with a completely different person so it could be a new perspective.

Droopy Eyes & Skull Stickers

Well, here are my droopy eyes and red Rudolph nose from blowing it every 5 seconds. This cold will NOT go away. I also saw this really funky car sticker waiting in line for coffee. You can't see it very well, but it is a skull with black hair in a bob with bangs and two little pink ribbons. Okaaay.

Making History

Well, history was made today, and in that regard it's good, but with all that is going on in the world, I don't envy ANYONE that has to run this country right now. Many of you know I felt neither candidate was experienced enough, nor represented my personal political views, but now that we have a new leader, no matter how we feel personally, we need to get behind him.

'Twas the night before elections.

They played "Eve of Destruction" on the radio on the way home, which made me laugh. As you know, it is a rule of mine NOT to really discuss politics on my blog. I post politically slanted articles once in a while for your consideration that I find interesting, but I think it's blog suicide to do anything more than that. I will say this, though, God help us all. I don't have a good feeling about ANY of this.

I think I'm going to kick back and play some soothing music and dream of better things. MUCH better things. Why don't you do the same?

I think I'm dying.

I'm at the stage in this cold where my phlegm is out of control. I can't lay down flat, it takes me an hour to blow my nose and when I cough it sounds like I'm underwater. It's super sexy. I'm hoping it scares the auditors away quickly. It's scaring everyone else away.

I bought my airline ticket yesterday for California. The day after I'm officially unemployed I'm going down to drive my mom back. But first, I will enjoy a few days down there. Nothing has panned out yet, jobwise. It's getting scary. I'm trying to be brave.

Mystery Phrase

Sorry, I can't tell you the phrase. If I did, you comedians out there who like to mock me would be saying it all over the place. This way its mystery remains absolute. Like love. I'm not willing to compromise that.

I don't mean to frustrate you, but some things in life don't always flow the way you want them to. I live with frustration about some things every day. It can be like some types of pain, it never really goes away, you just learn to live with it.

If the mystery decides to reveal itself to me, I will share then.

Party Pizza

You know what's good at 9:30 am on a Sunday? Party Pizza with Tabasco and Red Pepper Flakes. I will regret it later, but I'm a glutton for punishment.

Common Phrase?

There is a phrase, or a statement, that I've never heard before, that keeps popping up everywhere for me all of a sudden. It is not important for me to tell you what that saying is, but it is really becoming strange. It is not a common phrase I don't think, but different people who don't know each other keep saying it to me, and it is uncharacteristic for all of them! It is also showing up in emails, and other places. It is like someone is trying to tell me something. A sign?

The first couple of times I heard it, I dismissed it as coincidence, but it's getting ridiculous now and I want to know what I'm supposed to do with it.

You're curious now, aren't you?

Some people out there would ignore this kind of thing, or not think too much of it, which I almost did myself, but when it appeared in a very odd email to me tonight, I almost threw my Crackberry across the room. It's bugging me!

Comedians

My boss said the coolest stuff to me yesterday. He said he missed me already and that the second I left they would be "fucked". It brought me to tears. No joke. I had nightmares last night about hating my new job and everyone hating me. I have issues.

Here's a couple of snippets from a comedian I thought was funny:

"If worse comes to worse, we're screwed."

The next time you see a guy pushing 30 carts together through the grocery store parking lot, yell out, "Hey, someone else might want to use one of those!"

"I asked someone, what do you think my dream means? He said it means you were sleeping."

LOL!