The Pool

In the pool having a cup of Joe, listening to jazz. Oh, and playing with the Crackberry camera. Absolute bliss.

Sleepin' and Swimmin' IN THE BUFF!

I thought things needed some spicin' up around here on the CDM bloggery.

Now that I'm living in a warmer climate, I find it refreshing to sleep naked, and then if I wake up too hot still, I just waltz right on downstairs into the pool. I'm liking it. Dogs are confused. They watch me get in the pool and start whining. LOL.

I'm trying to arrange a "Disneyland" company event day. So far, they like the idea. Oh yeah, I've been busy. ;-)

Settling In.

Work was good, the commute was GREAT, everyone is sweet (all 10 of us) and there is a drive-thru Starbucks right next door! Perfect! We are in these primitive little trailers until the build-out is complete, and the trailer with the bathroom is across from mine. You should see me sprint in heels after a venti iced mocha! I get a desk and others get cubes, I'm movin' up in the world! Ha! Tonight, I have to hang all my clothes and alphabetize the DVDs. I'm getting boring, aren't I? That ship has probably already sailed.

All the boxes.

Movers came today, Yay! Now I have another big mess. Meh. Gotta report to work tomorrow so the cleanup will be slow. Also got a new chaise lounge from Costco for sunbathing. Ahh, so relaxing.

New Bath Accessories

Movers are late. Car is late. Of course.

Went shopping today for bathroom supplies. New shower curtain, new shower caddy and new big sunflower shower head with detachable nozzle. Bath time is important!

Took a dry run up to work so I don't get lost on Monday. Glad I did! Such a nice commute and right on the beach! This has all been a HUGE hassle, but it is going to be SO WORTH IT.

Got my internet and phone working but had to reschedule Direct TV because the moving truck is late with my TV on it. *sigh* I've already missed one episode of True Blood, damnit!

I made it.

Kickin' back with the pups waiting for the movers. I just spent so much time, energy and money getting here, only to have to start all over. UG. This place is gorgeous but does need a ton of work. It has the potential to be paradise, but I have to get my home sold to have money. Offloading two mortgages will be awesome. Apparently, my stress level has been so high for so long that my cortisol levels are abnormally high. My endocrinologist says I need more tests run and I have to stop stressing or it will kill me. I'm hoping my new situation will help that. I broke it off with the guy I was emailing from here that was going to take me to Disneyland because he was driving me batshit, so now I need to make some new friends, but I need to calm down first.

The feet are just for you, Jeffery! It was so great to meet you!

First dinner out as a Californian.

Spicy shrimp of course, here at "El Ranchito's" with mom having dinner and a tequila sunrise. Cool little place with a plant next to our table. Did some internet stuff at the Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf afterwards because my internet won't be installed until tomorrow. It's nice to sit and relax, it's been quite a ride.

The fun parts of moving.

OK I'm good now that I have the pool. What a trip. More details later. So, here are today's bloopers: The yard guy came, and Louie ran after him and took a corner too sharp, and PLOP! Right into the pool. You should have seen the look on the little guy's poor face! I went in after him. He's fine. Made me laugh. Also, my mom drove the SUV into the garage and didn't know the cargo bin on top wouldn't clear. OOPS. I laughed my ass off. She did not. We are like Cheech and Chong here; you would be amused.

I got a call.

I'm a little freaked and TOTALLY out of my comfort zone. My endocrinologist just called and it wasn't good news. So I guess you could say I am having a slight anxiety attack while driving down the San Diego freeway on my final stretch to my new home.

On the way!

Rough start but going smooth now. It's my turn to drive so I will finish this at a rest stop.

Off we go!

We're off a little late, but here we go! Off to the next chapter of my life! Dogs are ready for adventure! LOL. Mags has her doggie valium. Must get coffee and a bite. Bye Washington! Hello sunny California!

Bye-Bye Litttle House

I said goodbye to the house I worked my ass off for today. I had a lump in my throat as my mom and I drove away. It looks so lonely so empty. I remember the first day moving in over 10 years ago. BUT life goes on and I will be living in a beautiful home that will be remodeling fun. I am horribly exhausted and almost collapsed (literally) today from no sleep and hardly any food (it keeps coming up), but I made it. Barely. Moving out of state with hardly any help is very stressful and taxing.

Took the kid out to dinner with his girlfriend to say our goodbyes (pictured).

I leave tomorrow at 8 am. Meeting up with a friend in Portland for lunch (Jeffery @The Truth Hurts). Stay tuned for my famous road trip blogs. LOL.

Packed!

I did it. I'm ready to go. Packers came and finished up today and the movers are hauling it away tomorrow. Since I've only had a total of 4 hours of sleep in 2 days, I'm off to bed. Now the real adventure begins, along with the rest of my life. I'm a little weepy saying goodbye, and a little scared of the future. But it's all good.

My Little Helper

Hehe, there was a little mishap with the paper shredder. Poor Lou.

 
I'm finally heading off to bed. It was a productive day, but there is still much to do.

I have some weird things on my mind tonight, and thoughts that are making me sad. I don't want to be awake anymore.

Oh Dear Lord!

Look at this mess! I have two days to get it together and I'm gone most of the day tomorrow. AAHH! Help me, help me, HELP ME!

My Salon Farewell!

So sweet! A mother and daughter (and other awesome people) run this great Aveda salon in Redmond that I have known for 5 years now. I had a late appointment to get my hair done last night. Once all the other customers left, they brought out two bottles of champagne and ordered pizza and salad! We also did a peppermint schnapps shot toast to "New beginnings!". The mom's boyfriend was there too and serenaded us with his excellent guitar playing. We talked and laughed until midnight! A great memory and another surprise at how much people care! They will be missed.

Anybody wanna buy a house?

It's all ready to go. Yard is good, new front fence, new carpet, new paint inside, cleaning lady coming tomorrow. LOL.

God, I hope it sells soon for what I'm asking.

Last Day at the Seattle Corporate Office

Yes, I got my way. ;-) I don't throw fits very often so that when I do, people take me seriously.

It was kind of a sad day. When I first started this job, I didn't like it much. It took a while to get to know everyone (new people were kind of ignored) and it was pure chaos, with training consisting of trial by fire. I remember crying the first couple of weeks thinking I made a big mistake. Then I decided to change things around there and it worked! We became a great team and earned respect from the other departments by working hard, working smart, being accommodating and of course I threw my screwy humor into it. Now I have to start all over at the new plant, but I'm confident now that it can be done. I will very much miss my coworkers whom I became quite close with. I was so touched today when a lady I worked with almost came to tears saying goodbye. I have been showered by all kinds of gifts like a new lava lamp, lots of earrings, a necklace, underwater dumbbells for the pool (lol!), a scarf, many lunches, two cocktail parties, wind chimes, suntan lotion, and so on and so on. I don't know how to feel, it is quite overwhelming to think people care like this. I didn't know. I'm getting all choked up thinking about it. I am going in one last time on Friday to meet everyone for lunch. You know, it's funny, I will even miss my coffee girl! I weeded through all my scrapbook crap and gave her two huge bags full of stuff, some of it not even opened yet. She was so thrilled that I am no longer allowed to pay for coffee! I may miss her the most!

Life is all about the people you cross paths with. You never know how they will affect you, or how you will affect them.

Tomorrow, the painter is back at 8 am, I'm getting my hair done and going out with my hairdresser (she is a total sweetheart and wants to go out after my appointment to say goodbye too!), and of course more packing. My real estate agent friend came by last night to have me sign the seller paperwork and we are going to list this weekend and put up the for-sale sign. I know I will lose it (cry). I wanted to have all the work done first. The cleaning lady comes Thursday along with 2 doctor's appointments. Having to cram everything into this week has left me with a very full schedule. It would bore you to list the details and I'm starting not to be able to read my own writing in my planner anyway. Too many fricking cross-outs and rewrites!

I think I'm going to bed early tonight. Screw it, I'm wiped!

All Hell Has Broken Loose.

My current boss and my new boss spoke today and decided that I would work up until Friday this week. Then of course, MOVE on Monday. Um, I DON'T THINK SO. Yes, I have to move on Monday because I've rescheduled the movers so many times they won't talk to me anymore, but uh, guys? I kinda have a LOT OF SHIT TO DO IN 6 DAYS and can't be working 10 hours with a total of 4 hours of commuting every day and be ready to go. I had a serious fit. Not a good way to go out, but I'm a tad stressed and am not going to get my vacation rest time. Who came up with this whole work for a living crap anyway? Eve screwed it all up. SHE got to waltz around in the garden all day talking to animals and having sex with Adam, then decided THAT wasn't good enough, she needed forbidden fruit. All us women are stupid and get screwed over by snakes, I swear.

Oh, and to top off the day? The pizza guy brought me diet Pepsi. DIET. GROSS. He may as well have brought me gasoline. I DESPISE diet sodas.

The only good thing here is the kid made it! He graduated! Off to college in the fall! Go Bill! It went smoothly. That's all I'm gonna say about that.

Scratch that.

New boss emailed yesterday that she needs me down there, NOW. My move date moved up and I can't take vacation and have to start working June 28th. Bah! Now I'm even MORE stressed and do not get to take time off until August! At least I will be able to go home at night and take a dip in the pool.

Movers are coming the 21st and then I'm outta here.

Dinner last night was very nice and a little sad. I've known this friend for 20 years and he has always been there for me. He has a blood clot in his leg, and I worry for him. It is so hard to say goodbye to people.

I have to go get ready now.

Getting down to the wire.

Two weeks from today I will be in route to my new home; most likely hopped up on some serious caffeine. I'm still tired and a mess (I went to work today with my shirt on inside out), but things ARE getting done. My neighbor came over tonight to complete some of the "to do" list I gave him. (I paid him of course.) He unclogged the dishwasher, took out my window air conditioner, anchored the new water heater, fixed the wiring to the doorbell, took apart a wall-desk, fixed the bathroom floor vinyl and a whole bunch of other little things. He also put in my new front fence, and it looks GREAT. He is such an awesome friend and neighbor. I don't know what I would have done without him. His ex left him a few years ago (I didn't care for her too much) and when mine left, we became pretty close. Not romantically, just a really great friend to talk to, have a beer with and we have helped each other out a LOT. He had my mom and I over for his famous pressure cooker ribs (Yum!) last night. He has a new girlfriend that I really like, she is perfect for him. She is nice, down to earth and just a sweetheart. I'm so happy for him, he deserves the best. As it turns out, they are going to rent my mom's house here in Seattle! They get very low rent on a huge house, and my mom gets a built-in fix-it guy. Seriously, Denin can do ANYTHING. He even untangled my necklace last night when I was getting frustrated with it! LOL I am going to miss him a lot. People like him are a rare breed. My mom has adopted him into our family. :-) I asked him if I could fly him down to Cali when I had a problem and he said, "Sure!" LOL!

Tomorrow I'm going to dinner with an old boyfriend (he's married now, it's platonic) and Saturday is my stepson's graduation. THAT should be interesting. I'm not sure if my ex is going or not because he told me a while back he was moving to Texas, but if he does, I'm sure he will have his new wife with him. (He got remarried.) Hopefully he is happy now.

So, as you can see, I do not have one spare minute. I got home from work late tonight at 8:30 pm, and am trying to get this stupid packing done. The movers do the big stuff and breakables, but I'm responsible for all the little crap. I'm starting to get excited now as it gets closer and closer. I will have a little over 3 weeks to settle in, get some sun, swim, and go to Disneyland and Knott's Berry Farm! I'm such a kid. I'm tired of being a grown up right now.

I'm Gonna Ride On

It is three in the morning and of course I cannot sleep. The doctor, therapist and everyone else is telling me that if I don't get some sleep, I am going to collapse. That something terrible will happen to me. Do you know what I said? I said I didn't care. In retrospect that probably wasn't wise, but that's what I said. I have all these wonderful things finally happening in my life and I still don't care if I live or die. Obviously there is something wrong with me, but it beats the shit out of me what to do about it. I guess the "bad stuff" is still lurking around in my head. I still feel like a fool in many ways. I believed things I shouldn't have believed. I haven't lost my faith, but I feel pretty far from God, if that makes any sense. It's my own fault. It might be that when I think something good is finally happening, it goes nuclear on me. Maybe that's it, I don't believe the good is real anymore (at least not sustainable), so I resist getting excited. Hell, how do you fix that?

If you've been reading my blog for any length of time, you know many of the difficult things I've been through the last few years. Take what I've said here, then multiply it by a 100 and that will equal all the crap that I HAVEN'T talked about on the blog. It's amazing I'm not sitting in the corner rocking back and forth drooling into a cup. Yet. LOL!

I'm trying. I really am. Some days just kick the shit out of me. Some people, too.

What am I gonna do? I'm gonna ride on.

Shopping, Dating and the Last Two Weeks in WA

Sixteen more days in Washington. I confirmed my "load and pack" day as the 18th with the movers, then I'm staying with my mom until the leave date of the 24th. It is flying by. I'm slowly getting everything done, but I think I will just make it by the hair on my chinny-chin-chin. I did not know the word exhausted until now. I've had 2 jobs before, working 7 days a week, and I still wasn't as tired as I am now. I was fighting to stay awake on the freeway coming home tonight. Hopefully I will LIVE through this.

After the party on Friday night, my mom and I decided to make a shopping day out of Saturday. It was the first sunny day we'd had in weeks and we went to a nice lunch sitting outside, and I bought some cute things for the summer. Sunday I went and got a mani/pedi and went out on a last date with a guy who has been vying for my attention for awhile. He is trying to move to California because his ex-wife is moving there with his kids, but I guess I've turned into stone or something because I just don't feel anything for anyone. Nothing. I have this big wall, no, FORTRESS around me that just pushes people away now. I'm social and I go out, but I won't "engage" as the Navy pilots call it. I think I'm just on my own now. I'm not afraid, I just don't want to. It all seems moot to me now I guess, like it's not worth my time. Perhaps I'll feel differently later, but I don't see it happening any time soon. It's weird, I didn't feel like this a month ago, it is a recent thing. I'm OK with it though.

Party Pics

I love you all so much.

The party was great fun! I can't believe how many people showed up, 30 or more, I lost count. I didn't even know I HAD that many friends! I got to see a friend I hadn't seen in 15 years, and everyone overwhelmed me with kindness. My hostesses, Annie and Mick are the best friends a girl could ask for and bless my mom's heart for having it at her house. I'm still working on the pics, I didn't take very good ones, but I will put them up soon.

Par-tay!

My Bon Voyage party is tonight. There will be pics, I am quite sure, that will somehow appear on my blog soon.

Alive and Dead at the Same Time

I have so many bruises I lost count. My leg has a two-inch gash. I am experiencing sleep deprivation, and because of it I started crying uncontrollably at therapy today for no good reason. I have had a new therapist for quite a while, this time a male therapist, and I tell you what, he is AWESOME. He has a very different approach and gives a ton of feedback. He is not one of those useless therapists that just sit there. He is very direct with me, and I LOVE it. The truth. No bullshit. When I started crying and couldn't tell him why he asked me how much sleep I've been getting. I told him 3 to 4 hours a night for about a month now. He said, "Well no wonder!", handed me a Kleenex and told me not to get snot on the couch. LOL!  He cracks me up. I actually started with this new therapist not to "fix me" emotionally, but to help me find direction for my life. It appears to be working. A promotion into management, a big move, and I am actually moving forward and not dwelling on the past. If you live in the past, history will keep repeating itself and I DON'T WANT THAT. I am actually making big decisions and not looking back. Thrusting ahead with a vengeance. Only problem is, it's KILLING ME physically. My poor body. Every second of my day is taken up with something that MUST get done. It will soon slow down (a little), but I seriously can't wait to get the fuck outta here. I used to love Washington but am now just completely tired of it. 32 years here. Long enough. Yes, I am leaving clean air and beautiful trees/mountains/lakes, but I don't care anymore. The beach, the pool and the sun sound pretty damn good right now. I'll deal with the smog, the taxes and the bankrupt state of California for a while and like it! Getting a huge raise and no longer paying two mortgages will put me in a no-stress financial situation. I have NO IDEA what that is like, but I can't WAIT to find out. I might actually GET to Bora Bora, and not have to hock a kidney to do it.

Okay, THERE, I blogged.