Thursday, June 30, 2011
Old kitchen. Notice the wallpaper, ancient appliances (that didn't work), the olive green tile, the wicker light...
Notice the grass wallpaper in the family room, the dirty white berber carpet, the wood paneling and the old furniture. Don't forget to look at the lovely plastic lighting over the kitchen.
More of the same. There's Lou...oh how I miss him.
No more popcorn ceiling! In with the nice crown molding! New leather couch. Nice painted walls, no more fricking wallpaper!!
New wood floor, and new tile entryway...
Sunday, June 26, 2011
I've been focusing more on peacefulness and happiness rather than just straight weightloss. Honestly, I think it is half the battle. Holly Mosier agrees with me. I picked up this book at Costco, but I've actually met her. She owns the boxing gym I go to here in LA. A very gorgeous 49 year old woman.
Yes, eating right and working out hard is necessary too, but if you are all stressed out and unhappy, you get nowhere. TRUST ME. When I first moved here, my cortisol levels were through the roof! It has taken me a year to fix my thinking and chill out, and a bunch of weight fell off. Not all of it, but a good start. When you are happy, people gravitate to you, too. I just talked to John who is all stressed at the moment and the first thing he said was he wished he was here with me because he doesn't feel stressed when he is around me. I think it was our third date when he hugged me, layed his head on me and said "I just wanna BE with you." It made me feel so good. Probably why I like him so much.
Anyway, it is a process and it doesn't come naturally, but it does work if you keep trying. I played with a Cairn Terrier puppy yesterday. My mom thought it would wig me out and make me start crying, but it didn't. Puppies are good for the soul!! Then I went to see "Super 8". Fun flick! I took some pics of the new kitchen and family room. I will post them later.
Friday, June 24, 2011
John is great. I am incredibly attracted to him. He is totally sweet and fun. One problem. He is kinda AWOL between dates. Not much communication. I don't know what he is up to and I don't ask, but my intuition tells me he is a bit of a playboy. I could be wrong, but I haven't been yet so I listen to myself. I am giving him the benefit of the doubt for now because he is, well, a GUY, and he has had car trouble lately (apparently), but the whole "boyfriend/girlfriend" thing was never truly discussed soberly so I'm not closing down my inbox just yet. and WOW. As soon as you start dating someone you are really into, the pheromones start pumping out through the top of your head - and all the dogs come running to sniff, I tell ya!
Joe is back in my life (kinda). James won't give up. And, Mike, he be the new guy. My mom said "Are you in some kind of love triangle?" to which I replied "Uh, no, it would be a love pentagon."
Never in ALL my life did I EVER think any kind of scenario even REMOTELY close to this was possible for me! Wheeeeeeee! :-)
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Mom, thank you for all you do! She does the grocery shopping, most of the cleaning, the watering, is managing the house remodel and takes care of the dogs. She is also my receptionist, counselor and event coordinator.
My mother is an amazing woman and I love her so much! Go mom!
...and yes ma, I'll clean my room. :-)
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Question: "Wow! You get a lot of dates! What is your secret to attracting so many men? I am recently divorced also and I think I'm pretty, but I hardly ever get asked out." -
Question: "I just read through quite a few of your blog posts and see that you have truly been thru a lot of crap!! You have (are) handling it so well (it seems). How did you cope with so much so gracefully?"
Monday, June 13, 2011
Well, we watched the sunset....AND the sunrise. ;-) Yes, it was a very nice and romantic evening to which my heart fluttered every time he kissed me and touched my face. The beach was beautiful and quaint. I am enjoying every minute of this and not letting myself get wrapped up in any expectations. I don't spend time analyzing what his intentions with me are, and I'm not asking. There is no hurry; if it works out, it works out, if it doesn't, it doesn't - although I do really like him and have incredible chemistry with him. He is a very good looking, successful 46 year old man who says all the right stuff, does all the right stuff, who has never been married and has no kids -- so being certain that he is my knight in shining armor would be a little unrealistic and stupid on my part, I think. I am not even 100% certain of our status as a couple, and that's ok. He keeps calling me, he keeps asking me out, and apparently he thinks of me as a "goddess".
As we were checking out the beach scene, a group of VERY attractive women walked by us.
John: "Yeah, they're hot, but you're a goddess."
Me: (smiling) "A goddess? Uh huh, yeah."
John: "Don't kid yourself. I'm a guy, and trust me, you are incredibly sexy. That, along with intelligent, successful, fun and a total sweetheart."
Me: (Somewhat speechless) "Um...well...thanks. I've been called a lot of things; Goddess is a first."
John: "Well, you are."
Me: "OK, let's go with that."
So, although it sounds like I blog the every detail of my life, that is not accurate - there is soooo much more. Lots of stuff going on in my life. Sorry, but some things are just mine to keep. ;-)
Thursday, June 09, 2011
In other news, I'm now planning a Vegas trip! Woooo! I've never been there, so this should be fun! A friend of mine (Annie!!) turns 40 at nearly the same time I do, so us and a big group of friends are celebrating in Vegas. Viva las Vegas, baby!
Tuesday, June 07, 2011
While I was busy texting (Johnny of course) my mother asked "So how is lover-boy?" Lover-boy? So yes, this is the shit I get when I tell people about my love life.
So John's car should be fixed by Wed. night - and in his text today he wrote "I will call you the SECOND I get my car back because I need to see you. I miss you." So sweet. Purrrr.
Are you nauseated yet? Don't roll yer eyes too much - this is MY love life we're talking about here. Anything and everything can (and usually does) happen, and I am quite aware how full of shit guys can be. BUT, this is why I am probably feeling so laid back and happy right now - I am just enjoying the moment for what it is without thoughts of the past or the future. I have a new favorite saying: "It is what it is." LOL - so true.He said he wants to spend Thursday evening on the beach - walking along with the sunset. Time has almost come to a complete stop for me. I can't remember looking forward to ANYTHING as much as I am looking forward to this and the minutes are draaaagggging along! AAAH! Thursday night may as well be in 2016! I am almost 40 and never once in my whole entire life have I ever had a romantic walk on a beach at sunset. Ever. It may sound stupid and cliche to you, but if you were me, it would sound a whole lot different, I promise you. I've never really experienced romance.
So here I am, trying this again. 388th time is a charm!
Sunday, June 05, 2011
It is sad when you spend more on girlie stuff in just a few hours than your boyfriend (pictured -- Johnny!) did on getting his transmission fixed! Oy! I can do some damage when I wanna. But I gotta look good for my new man, right? ;-) And yes, those are my ginormous bras in the background. I have big boobies. Don't hate me because I have big ta-ta's. HA!