Friday, August 22, 2008

I just got word that my grandpa is going to die. I love him so much - he was such a great grandpa. He taught me how to play chess, told me pirate stories and showed me all the constellations - among many other things. This will be my fourth family member loss in less than a year.

I am very, very worried about my mom. She is just too overwhelmed. My heart hurts so much right now, for so many reasons. It literally aches. I need my "Plan A" to expedite ASAP so I can try to be happy.

I think I'm going to guzzle the rest of my codeine cough syrup and just pass out for the evening.

God help me.


Ann(ie) said...

oh piss. You are kidding me? I'm so glad you got to see him while you were there. xo.

stick shaker said...

cher i am so sorry...i am thinking about you...xo