Louie

Louie was diagnosed with arthritis and a back/spinal problem that is causing nerve damage. The poor little guy was in pain and didn't know how to tell us except to be grumpy. The vet put him on joint lubricator and some pain management meds. Since he has been on those, he has been perky and playful, and so much better. I broke down and balled on the vet's floor. I feel like it is the beginning of the end because Lou is already 10. I just want him to be happy and in no pain. I want him to have quality of life. I will have to sell a kidney to pay for the monthly vet bills now.

I missed a meeting with my director this morning. NOT good. I don't foresee this day getting any better.

Late

So I just called my boss to tell her I'd be late due to traffic and she laughed at me and said, "Have fun with that.".

Bored in Traffic

This is the lovely traffic I'm sitting in. I am not amused. I'm bored so I took a pic of my heart charm necklace. And YES, it is OK to blog if you aren't MOVING. This just sucks. I'm going to be so damn late, which means I won't be getting home until dark. That always makes for a nice day, work then bed. Neat.

Backaches, Storms & Work-Work

I think I need a new mattress. I'm waking up with a backache every morning. It is horrible. I feel like a 100-year-old Frankenstein.

There is thunderstorm this morning. I'm enjoying it, it is dark and creepy out like an old horror movie.

I had a fun Friday night, a lazy Saturday, and now I have to get some things done around here and possibly do some work-work. Work-work is the stuff I get paid for. Just so you know the diff.

Well, Son of Beech. Sheet!

(Think "Stripes" movie.) My NJ/NY trip might be cancelled now. It is not 100%, but they are thinking of just sending my boss without me to do all the training. Big huge bummer. My boss is still trying to convince the powers that be of the need for my presence there (which is true), but who knows if they'll listen. Fingers crossed! My life is so boring. I'm looking at shoes online again. I have a problem.

Bathroom Nazi Subway Shop

Went to grab a bite at the bathroom-nazi Subway Sandwich Shop. They had Led Zeppelin cranked. LOL. Gotta love Seattle. On another note, I'm New Jersey/New York bound in two weeks! A tad earlier than expected.

Pink Pumps

Are these not the coolest pink pumps you've ever seen? Where do you wear them, though? I've never had a shoe interest before. I've always been so practical in this area, having maybe five pairs. 1 pair of sneakers, 1 pair of sandals, 1 pair of nice shoes (usually pumps), 1 pair of flats and 1 pair of boots. I have gone bonkers since then. I have over 25 pairs now. I still have *never* read a romance novel, however. NEVER. The only romance I get is in the vampire porn novels. HA. Guess I'm just a little more realistic in the love area. (You know, because vampire porn is realistic.) What I mean is, romance? Whatever. Too much work, and I question the sincerity you know? Passion now, is an entirely different story. Passion rocks. But for the most part, I'm with the guys, let's cut to the chase.

The 4th

So the 4th of July. Maggie, my insane dog, attempted to jump up and take a lit sparkler out of the 8-year neighbor's kid's hand. I was video taping it because it started out cute, but then I freaked when I realized she may get it and burn her mouth. I tried to upload the video of me losing my mind, but I couldn't get it to work. That's probably a good thing. LOL.

Bones

My new fav song is "Bones" by Little Big Town. I'm walking around half naked today because it is hot and blaring it.

Midnight Snack

So I was up at 3 am. Is eating left over pizza at that hour, OK? Is cleaning also OK? Just checking. So how is everyone doing out there?

Crickets.

Bad News

I received some very bad news yesterday. I'm trying to hold it together the best I can. There is nothing I can do.

Happy 4th everybody.

Downtown Seattle & My Office

The art sculpture is supposed to mean 'peace and serenity' or something. To me it is 'logs hanging from a metal pipe triangle blocking my view of the water'. But to each his own, I guess.

The fountain is cool except for the naked kid sculpture. I found it retarded and a little creepy. Maybe I'm just picky about what I think is art. I don't know. Too critical?

Odwalla "Serious Focus" apple raspberry. Today, I NEED serious focus, otherwise I will go "Nucking Futs" like the sign above my computer says.

Earthquake!

So we had an earthquake today. I didn't feel it because I was in bed. Poo. Not too big, a 3.7 or something. I don't know why, but I like earthquakes. Not the destructive killer ones, but the roly-poly fun ones. I know. Freak. You have NO idea.

I telecommuted today. Yup, worked from home. Liked that. Wish I could do it more. I loved having the pups lay at my feet.

How's that for a seriously random post?

Worst day EVER.

Everyone is stupid everywhere. Also mean. I even had an old crusty cop yelling at me for only driving 60 in the left lane. The speed limit is 55, fucker. He didn't give me a ticket, but he was YELLING at me. I used to be a cop. The only time I yelled was when a 400-pound Samoan asshole was resisting arrest. Not a good idea otherwise, we live in the age of nutjobs who like to blow people away for shit like that. It was painful for me to say, "Yes sir". He wasn't even in his own territory. I would like to know on what planet you get a ticket for going too slow in the fast lane, when you are actually going 5 over the speed limit. WTF? Maybe so the people going 90 don't get irritated?

Thinking Too Much

I can tell it's going to be a sleepless night. It's back. My good 'ol friend insomnia. It happens when I think too much. (Not drink, THINK) Being brain dead is much easier on the 40 winks. Fuck.

You know what? I don't care that I cuss. I get it out. I guess I'll just have to deal with it. I know it isn't lady-like. I know it isn't eloquent. I suppose it is hypocritical to my faith, but I do it anyway. I don't hide it. It offends some people. It makes others laugh. It makes me sound uneducated, even though I am quite well educated. Anyone keeping tabs on me? I do not use it to hurt people; my heart is not malicious. I don't do it at inappropriate times, I'm not stupid. I use it to express the intense feelings I don't know what to do with. I use it for humor. I use it to keep the phonies away.

Maybe I use it to keep people away. What are you doing here? Why do you read? Who are you?

Are you new? Is this a frequent stop? Tell me. I've got time.

A Year Recap

About a year ago, I wondered where my life would be now. Well, truly, a lot has changed. Most for the good, I guess. Everything is so different, but I'm trying to see it as positive. Like I said earlier, I'm still struggling with a few things, but I'm definitely keeping busy with my new job and little projects I have going on at home. (When I'm not sleeping.) I am also still struggling with my stupid weight. It has become more about health lately than vanity, although I would like to look and feel sexier and stronger. Most of the time I feel like a big oaf, and I hate taking pills. I haven't been able to join the boxing club like I had hoped due to my crazy work schedule, but I do have a video at home. But yes, you would laugh your ass off if you watched me try to do it. I close all the windows and drapes. Sometimes the dogs bark at me. Sometimes I fall. (One con about getting ceramic flooring, LOL.)

Anyway, nothing much else going on. Gotta work now. I'll write later. I'm feeling chatty.

Stuff

It is a nice warm Saturday afternoon. Finally! Here is the comfy 'rocking' patio couch I got as a hand-me-down, nestled among my dying grass. It will be great for sunbathing and watching lightning storms. You know how I love me some storms! I still need to move to a place that has really good ones, but I have to wait until my company builds more plants, which will be in the near future. It is a really good job for me, and I don't want to give up the money and the growth potential! I've heard through the grapevine of plants possibly in Texas, Los Angeles and Atlanta, but just rumors for now. I'm going to be training some of the New Jersey staff soon (can't wait!).

I am also wearing my new earrings I got as a special gift from a very special person. I dig 'em! They're me. Thank you, you know who you are! ;-). The other pic of me was a goof-up mistake, but it's kinda funky and I like it.

My mood has been a little better lately, but I'm still struggling with a few things, that if I think about them too long, I get weepy. BUT I'm keeping myself busy.

All About Work

For people who come into our office fired up, they get a five-minute timeout with my lava lamp.

My coworker and I had a very pretty lunch, and FYI, Iced Thai coffees ROCK.

I have the blahs.

The car right next to mine in the parking garage was broken into and bashed all to hell. Here is he glass. Scary. Thank God it wasn't my car!

View from the executive board room. Pretty.

I'm stressed to the max.

My engine light came on, Maggie has a growing lump on her head, work is nuts and Louie's behavior is out of control. Don't know what to do anymore. Craziness abounds.

Freezing in June

It is late June. I am freezing. I am wearing a coat because I am freezing. It is now in the 80's in California. Life is not fair. At all.