View from the bed.

Look at that sunshine! My mom's dog (Molly) apparently decided to sleep with me, aww. Today's agenda: Lay in the sun, swim, order my favorite pizza and LOVE EVERY MINUTE OF IT.

On the Plane

Getting ready for takeoff! Whee! I know, I'm weird.

At the Airport

Well, here I am at the airport. These places don't do good things for my anxiety. Right now, I'm chugging down a double rum and coke in the airport sports bar by myself. That should help. Taking pictures of myself while doing said task must seem weird to others, but documenting my life play-by-play online seems to be my new normal. (Sad, right?) I'm sort of smiling in one of the pictures, that should make some of you happy. I'm excited. I like trips. I just caught a glimpse of the news and the wildfires in California look bad. My mom said the ash looks like snow. Neat. Time to board! More later.

Emotional Sap

I'm a huge emotional sap in my old age. After I left the mall last night, my friend from work called me and told me she missed me already and that a couple people fell apart after I left. It made me feel so good that I will be missed. It was an incredible place to work with some very talented and great people. I started balling in the car on my way home.

Today will be filled with packing. I leave on a late flight tonight. California, here I come!

Mall Hell

I spent my gift certificate rather quickly. It wasn't difficult.

Buying stuff helps the sadness. Here is my new bag of beauty products and an iced mocha (of course). Don't you say a word, Nichole.

Oh, and by the way HOLE, I just bought some sexy damn underwear, and you can thank your lucky stars I'm not sitting here taking a picture of each one. I should. I haven't bought an undergarment with lace on it for a long-ass time. I'm proud of myself.

Farewell Lunch

Wow, I just had a great last lunch with a dear co-worker. We got really personal, and I shared some things almost no one knows. It felt good to talk to someone about them! She shared too and this makes it even harder to leave, unfortunately, but I know now that we'll keep in touch. She had some great advice, too. I am going to miss her.

Traffic Fun

Traffic is fun, I love it. No smiling right now. So many roads are closed this morning due to the flooding, and it is causing a nightmare commute. Bah. I'm going shopping today after my last day of work. That might make me smile. Although I HATE malls, I DO have a $100 gift certificate to spend!

Frowny McGrumpy

I've been asked to post a picture of me smiling. Apparently, I'm Frowny McGrumpy. I guess I've been in a poopy mood for a decade or so, sorry. Things aren't THAT terrible I suppose, I'm just sad a lot, and restless, and anxious, and well, you get the point. It's been a while since I felt smiley.

My last day at work tomorrow will no doubt be emotional. Some people there are really close friends of mine. I am going to feel very lonely until I can make some friends at the new job. I'm a little shy when I start a new job, and since I'm a temporary contract this time, who knows if anyone will want to bother making friends with me.

I'll try to take a picture of me smiling, OK? Gimme something to smile about internet people.

The Flooding Continues

That is not a lake, it is a farm field. Nice, huh? The flooding is insane right now. I'm constantly worried the bridge will be flooded out by house, and I won't be able to get home.

I want my coffee.

Here is my grumpy face waiting in line for coffee. I'm late for work because of the flooding. Oh well. My second to last day, then off to California! I don't have to start my new job until December, so that will be nice too. It will be a much-needed break.

Oh, and for those asking, no, I didn't do anything exciting for my birthday last night. I came home early, watched TV, ate a steak and went to bed. Thrilling, huh?

The Mrs. Butterworth Scandal

Have you noticed how Mrs. Butterworth doesn't have big boobs anymore? What the hell?

Flooding in Sultan, WA

Will I make it home?

ACK! The only road to my house is flooding. I am promptly leaving work (at the end of the audit) to see if I can make it. Shit!

Happy Birthday?

I'm kinda sad today. I know you are supposed to be happy on your birthday, but I have a lot of extenuating circumstances that have put a damper on it. Oh well, I'm going to try and make the best of it.

37 is the New 21

Well, I just officially turned 37. Show me the presents! FYI: 37 is the new 21. Just so you know.

CrazyDogMama Mad Libs

This is for all my nosy readers who don't like it when I'm "cryptic" in my posts.

1. Get over it.

2. I really, really love ________.

3. I want to _________ on a ________.

4. _______ is my obsession.

5. Late at night when I'm feeling restless, I __________.

6. If you ever meet me, I will ________________, and you'll love it.

7. When people tell me how and what to write in my blog without being asked I ___________.

8. Kiss my _____.

9. If I don't get ________, I will ___________.

10. I really want and gotta have ___________.

11. __________ is the ___________ of my life.


Love, Crazydogmama

Tidbits from my fragmented brain.

1. It is time for a break because about every 3rd minute I am staring off into space forgetting what I'm doing.

2. I am way tired.

3. I would do anything for a full body massage right now. With a glass of something on the side.

4. I'm starting not to care.

5. I am obsessing about something I shouldn't be obsessing about.

6. I think it is due time for something spectacular to happen to me. I'm waiting and ready.

7. I don't know what I'm going to do for dinner while I'm at work.

8. I don't know what time I'm going home.

9. I have a hole in my sock, and it is driving me batshit.

10. I need new underwear.

11. I'm still restless. And I don't like it.

12. I'm not looking forward to the holidays this year. Because of all the death in the last year. I probably won't talk about the holidays much this year. Just so you know.

14. Oh somebody please help me for God's sake, I've lost my mind.

Time Warp

Well, that was stupid. I started getting ready at 3 am, then decided to "lay back down for a few minutes" and didn't wake back up until 6 am. What a retard.

3 AM

I'm getting up. It's 3 am. I'm going to take a shower and get ready for work. I thought about it for a while and came up with an answer to my work behavior and left it in the last comment. Now if I could figure out one last thing I'd be in great shape! That's a complicated one though. At least I get to go to Cali on Sat, that will be fun. It's a nice escape. I'll think of it as a birthday trip.

Understanding Myself

Sorry guys. I've had a headache all day and never even made it to work. Now I'm stressed and will have to probably pull an all-nighter at work tomorrow. I don't know why I care so much, but I do. There are many things I don't understand about myself, and because of that it has been a bizarre weekend emotion-wise. I think I need to give up on understanding myself. I'll just roll with it. LOL.