I think I'm dying.

I'm at the stage in this cold where my phlegm is out of control. I can't lay down flat, it takes me an hour to blow my nose and when I cough it sounds like I'm underwater. It's super sexy. I'm hoping it scares the auditors away quickly. It's scaring everyone else away.

I bought my airline ticket yesterday for California. The day after I'm officially unemployed I'm going down to drive my mom back. But first, I will enjoy a few days down there. Nothing has panned out yet, jobwise. It's getting scary. I'm trying to be brave.

Mystery Phrase

Sorry, I can't tell you the phrase. If I did, you comedians out there who like to mock me would be saying it all over the place. This way its mystery remains absolute. Like love. I'm not willing to compromise that.

I don't mean to frustrate you, but some things in life don't always flow the way you want them to. I live with frustration about some things every day. It can be like some types of pain, it never really goes away, you just learn to live with it.

If the mystery decides to reveal itself to me, I will share then.

Party Pizza

You know what's good at 9:30 am on a Sunday? Party Pizza with Tabasco and Red Pepper Flakes. I will regret it later, but I'm a glutton for punishment.

Common Phrase?

There is a phrase, or a statement, that I've never heard before, that keeps popping up everywhere for me all of a sudden. It is not important for me to tell you what that saying is, but it is really becoming strange. It is not a common phrase I don't think, but different people who don't know each other keep saying it to me, and it is uncharacteristic for all of them! It is also showing up in emails, and other places. It is like someone is trying to tell me something. A sign?

The first couple of times I heard it, I dismissed it as coincidence, but it's getting ridiculous now and I want to know what I'm supposed to do with it.

You're curious now, aren't you?

Some people out there would ignore this kind of thing, or not think too much of it, which I almost did myself, but when it appeared in a very odd email to me tonight, I almost threw my Crackberry across the room. It's bugging me!

Comedians

My boss said the coolest stuff to me yesterday. He said he missed me already and that the second I left they would be "fucked". It brought me to tears. No joke. I had nightmares last night about hating my new job and everyone hating me. I have issues.

Here's a couple of snippets from a comedian I thought was funny:

"If worse comes to worse, we're screwed."

The next time you see a guy pushing 30 carts together through the grocery store parking lot, yell out, "Hey, someone else might want to use one of those!"

"I asked someone, what do you think my dream means? He said it means you were sleeping."

LOL!

Goodbyes are hard.

I have two weeks left, but everyone else had to leave today. Very sad.

Breakfast of Champions

It is an iced mocha and sausage biscuit with cheese kind of morning. I don't care about clogged arteries today. Or any other day for that matter. Fuck it, bring me cheese.

Thelma & Louise

You know what's fun to watch? Thelma and Louise. Sue me, but I love that movie.

So much to do, so little motivation.

The phone interview went well. The lady interviewing me commented that she wasn't supposed to ask me "personal questions" but wanted to ask some (fun ones), so I said, "Sure!" and we chatted and laughed for quite a while. I LIKE THAT! Jobwise they need a lot of controls established, which is my forte! I am supposed to be scheduled for a face-to-face interview in a week or two because the company is crazy-busy (good sign!), so they asked for my patience. I have none of that, but I am pleased with them so far, so OK.

I have never been so busy in all my life. Not even when I had 2 jobs and a scrapbooking business. Seriously. All I feel like I'm doing is running in circles. Phone calls, emails, paperwork, interviews, getting 3 months of work done in two weeks, computer guy coming tomorrow to get files off of my old fried laptop, taking the car in for work, training other people to do my work, buying another airline ticket to go to California to drive my mom back, going to those market research things where they pay you cash for your opinion, ordering dog food, setting up COBRA, getting blood drawn, taking dog to the vet. AAHH!

Sympathy? Anyone?

Cold Hell

This cold/flu thing I've got going on is kicking my butt. You could say I'm in "Cold" hell.  I've been upset and stressed out for so long that my poor little body just can't handle anything. I think we are designed to deal with 'spurts' of stress, not years. I went right to bed last night, no blogging, no TV, no answering the phone.

Anyway, I have another interview today and this is an important one. It is a phone interview, but I'm really interested in this job. Wish me luck.

Miserable

I finally got the cold everyone has. It's lovely. When I bend over, snot FALLS out of my nose. I'm miserable, and what terrific timing! It's fun how the older you get, the harder it is on you. I feel like I can hardly move, and everything seems surreal. Pray it goes away quick, I don't have time for this!

Interview time!

I'm sitting here in my car waiting for the longest train in the history of the world. Might as well blog.

I have an interview today. I'm all dressed up, hair in a French twist. I really hate interviews. I want to waltz in there and tell them just to save time because I can do this job in my sleep and no one else will be as accurate as my anal retentive, perfectionist ass who will make friends with everyone instead of piss off all the engineers like most people in my field do. I hate beating around the bush. Let's just get the job done. Instead, I have to be all politically correct and sell my talents gracefully. Bah!

I'm trying to pull up.

Got some interviews lined up this week. Let's see if any of them want to loosen the purse strings a bit. I'm trying to pull up. It is hard watching your world crash around you. I am just so overwhelmed I can't even think. I have 2 audits to get my company through (just found out about a surprise FDA audit next week, neat) and some of my hopeful prospects are not living up to my expectations. I just can't even GUESS what my future holds right now. I'm trying not to worry about it, but I'm not exactly a Pollyanna kind of person. I'm a bit jaded. I call it realistic. I got an email about a job in Colorado. Interesting. I'll think about it.

Down

I'm really, really down.

My Epic Halloween Party

The epic Halloween party I had!  In order, we have:  Amy & Hole (Beth), Juice (Annie), creepy bathroom, creepy food, Hole (Beth), Melissa, Michael (Jim), crackberry addicts, ping pong, creepy water cooler, and zombie Denin!

Geriatrics

Well, we had fun, I love my friends to death, especially when they are willing to drive so far out to see my craziness, but dude I feel like a geriatric. We were all yawning by 10 pm. LOL. I didn't drink very much; I'm feeling done with that too. I think this will be my last party. I do have some fun pics but I'm too tired, need bed.

CrazyDogMama the Vampire

Vamping out. A few pics of me getting ready. I need a good neck to nibble on, any volunteers?

Parties are Work

Have I mentioned how much work parties are? Holy crap! No one better bail on me or I will hunt you down.

I've been working like a dog getting this place ready! It does look way cool if I do say so myself. There will be lots of pics, so you all who are invited better dress up, because you will be plastered all over the internet one way or another.

The devil in the details.

Re-labeling my wine bottles. Yup, I get that detailed. My parties are serious business!

Decorations are coming together.

A sneak peek at my Halloween party decorations. I haven't even gotten started yet!