Saturday, February 28, 2009
Well I survived the first 3 days of my new job. It has been a big change for me - and all the walking has made my butt and hips sore. Shutty. I know.
I apparently woke up yelling "Get out!" LOL.
I think I've lost the ability to blog in any sort of organized fashion.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Yes, Juice, the commute sucks, and no, Nichole I don't work at Fred Hutchinson. I'll tell you where I work if you email me - I need to be conservative on the blog these days.
Once I figured out what floor I work on, I then got stuck in the bathroom. There is good smelly lotion in there and after I washed my hands, I put some on. I then could not open the door with the big heavy round knob. I had to use my shirt to get it open, and even then it took me a few minutes. Yeah, I'm doin' great!! L.O.S.E.R. LOL
I am now enjoying a LARGE adult beverage. Nighty night.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
My last day at my contract job today was a little sad. I wouldn't have thought it would be, but I actually made a friend I will miss. I was only there 3 months, but it was pretty cool. I am starting a job tomorrow a little unlike anything I've ever done before. It's in the city, it has more than 50 employees, and it is Biotech (I previously only did medical device). I need to have my A game on, and I guess that is why I'm nervous. It is exciting, too, but my life has been a bit topsy turvy and I need to make sure I am focused.
Monday, February 23, 2009
We had some excitement at the Crazydogmama household this past weekend. Two young guys were causing trouble in my front yard destroying property and yelling and fighting. One guy was trying to restrain the other who was clearly either drunk or hopped up on drugs. Totally out of control. I called 911. The cops came and surveyed the damage, but the boys were long gone by the time the fuzz arrived. Crap! My neighborhood is going to shit. I hate that.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Holy crap, what a complete mess. My office is a train wreck, much like my emotional stability of late. It is time to tackle this monster. I have NEVER in my life been this disorganized and messy. I'm usually the one people are calling to help them out with THEIR mess. Well, I can't standz it any longer!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
1. Expect the unexpected. The weirdest shit happens to me right out of the blue. SERIOUSLY.
2. The littlest thing can impact your life forever in a big way. And you won't necessarily know it until much later.
3. Cool earrings make all the difference in the world. I went a long time without wearing any earrings at all, then I started to again - and they change your whole appearance.
4. Someone will always find out.
5. My hairstylist told me that she took a poll and most women think straight hair on women is more attractive and most men think curly hair is more attractive on women. I have naturally curly hair, and with this knowledge I still straighten my hair most days. Go figure.
6. Candles DO change your mood.
7. Hearing someone call someone else a 'stupid motherfucker' is funny. It just IS.
8. Writing in a blog can cause all KINDS of trouble.
9. If you really look, you can see that something good always comes out of something bad. I challenge you to look back on your own life and find this.
10. It is true that if you really love someone, their happiness becomes more important than your own.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
There is no point in going over it all. It is crisis after crisis around here. I'm not talking about breaking fingernails either, I mean REAL problems. Sometimes life and death ones. Thank God I'm calm in a crisis. I break down later...like yesterday. 8 hours of crying. Fun shit. But then it's over and I get back to work. It is that or a padded room, you know? (Sometimes the padded room sounds pretty good though...)
I've still got froggy throat and now a big UGLY fever blister on my lip. I look sexy, let me tell ya. My head is starting to feel thick, too. Super.
The good news? It is time to go hooooome. Buh bye.
Monday, February 16, 2009
Sunday, February 15, 2009
OK, so now, how was Friday the 13th? Well, it wasn't bad, but it was lacking the creep factor. Even though nothing scares me, I need to feel something. It was entertaining, but I wasn't disturbed.
I finally got around to watching the Saw movies - which no one can believe it took me this long. I watched the first one and wasn't all that impressed except that it had a good twist. Much later I watched the second one and liked it, but it didn't have a rich enough creep factor for me, so I stopped watching them. Just last weekend I watched Saw III. Awesome! GREAT creep factor! SO brutal! Loved it. You definitely have to watch the unrated version though. Saw IV was pretty good too and now I'm gonna watch five this weekend.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
LOL - love that movie.
OK, so HERE'S the news: I NAILED THAT JOB I'VE BEEN TRYING TO GET SINCE LAST OCTOBER!!!! Wooooooooo! The one I interviewed the first time for last November when I was in California. It took a number of interviews (including a five hour face to face one!) and I received the offer letter last Wednesday. They were VERY thorough and picky, and I feel very honored that they chose me. I also feel blessed to get such a job in the state of the union. I gave notice at my contract job - which I felt terrible about - yesterday. So I can talk about it now. I was offered more money than I've EVER made with incredible benefits (no more Cobra!) and I will be working toward a goal that is near and dear to my heart - targeting cancer. My grandmother died of breast cancer.
I start the 25th in the heart of downtown Seattle on the waterfront not far from the Space Needle. It is in an area known as "Belltown". The commute will be a BITCH, but I am so excited. It will be a very challenging job for me, but I'm going to give it my all.
OK, back to Valentines Day. I'm going to go see the Friday the 13th remake. YAY! Full report when I get back - it looks well made. I am sick and twisted aren't I? One minute I'm posting Bible verses, and the next talking about horror movies. LOL!! That's me. Love me or don't. ;-)
Coming up in the next post: Friday the 13th movie review, what I think of the "Saw" movies (since I just recently watched them - I KNOW!), and pics from the party I went to last night.
Friday, February 13, 2009
Galatians 6:7-10 “Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, this he will also reap. For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life. Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary. So then, while we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, and especially to those who are of the household of the faith.”
I don't usually post quotes from the Bible, but I am today. I read this, this morning, and it really stuck in my head - especially the "Let us not lose heart in doing good" part. It is so easy to lose heart; to give up; to stay pissed off. But it's not worth it. Carrying around anger and resentment only hurts YOU. It is an awful way to live. I gave that up awhile ago, and while I still struggle with depression, I feel free of those other destructive emotions. Sure, I get grumpy like anyone else, but I'm not angry anymore. I spent MANY years hauling around that burden, and take it from me, it is NOT worth it. No good can come from it. Even to those that have hurt me I am trying to do good for - and it is quite redeeming. Not in a egotistical or smug way, but an honest and compassionate way. I like it much better.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Life is too short to wake up with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, but also love the ones who don't because you CAN! Love can change people.
Believe everything happens for a reason.
If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands.
If it changes your life, let it!
God never said life would be easy, He just promised it would be worth it.
For Valentine's weekend I'm going to go see the new remake of Friday the 13th (romantic!) and go to a friend's bday party at a piano bar. So it's not sounding all that bad..maybe F'in February is finally changing for me!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Funny boss story. My boss keeps putting these boxes full of parts on top of my filing cabinets, and to mess with him, I give him a hard time about them being in my way constantly. A day or so ago, I put my hands on my hips and said "these boxes are still here...have we not talked about this?" in a sarcastic tone. All of a sudden, as he was standing next to them, he reached out his arm very dramatically and did a complete SWOOP and sent the box flying; parts going everywhere. He calmly smiled and said "Better?". It startled the shit outta me and TOTALLY took me aback and I started laughing until I was crying. Then he started laughing as well as the temp. It was just classic. Too funny.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Monday, February 09, 2009
-Theodore Isaac Rubin, M.D.
“It is dangerous to be right in matters on which the established authorities are wrong.”
"After the game, the king and the pawn go into the same box."
"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.”
"As a human being, one has been endowed with just enough intelligence to be able to see clearly how utterly inadequate that intelligence is."
"Once integrity is lost, the rest is a piece of cake."
- J.R. Ewing
Had a pretty nice Sunday. Woke up to a little snow this morning and a beautiful full moon. This should be an interesting week. I'm waiting on some (potentially big) news. Spent a nice day yesterday having breakfast (eggs benedict - my fav) and then took some old movies I didn't want anymore back to "Half Price Books" and exchanged them for some good old horror movies - then went back home and cooked a yummy apple smoked pork loin with homestyle potatoes. It was sooooo good. Fell asleep early and actually got more than 8 hours of sleep! I did wake up a few times, but I feel rested today.
Saturday, February 07, 2009
I left work early on Friday to get my taxes done and am only getting enough back to pay the guy doing them. Ugg. I made too much last year (um, what?) and my itemized deductions were less this year. I wasn't feeling up to going out after that, so I went home and crashed. As usual. This morning I had one of my headaches, and have had it all day, so I have been very quiet and not moving a whole lot. I took a break from the computer, hence my absence. Sometimes it just needs to be shut off. I should shut it off for the whole weekend, but I'm not that strong yet. LOL
The headache is gone now and the house is a mess. I guess it is time to clean. Last week was challenging for me and I'm hoping for a better week next week.
Thursday, February 05, 2009
I deleted the last post by accident. Again. And it had a comment! I get so few of those, so damn it! It wasn't my best stuff, so no biggie, but I keep doing that! I need to slow it down; crank it down a notch; chill the F out. I've got nuthin' for today. Nuthin'. Maybe I should delete THIS retarded post by accident. :-/
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
Obviously I will have to cut down on the Oreo's and oatmeal pies. LOL I feel this is the perfect "balance". Strong and sexy, yet not *too* muscular or man-like. I want to keep my boobs and my curves. I'm going to have Skwigg help me with a "head transplant" so that I can put the pic on my refrigerator. (A head transplant is where you take a digital photo of your own head and put it on whatever body you want.) It is a great motivator. When it's done, I'll post it. ;-)
I am also starving. I could eat an entire cow right now. My tummy is making really loud grumbly noises and I'm starting to get cranky. I do not like being hungry.
There are so many things I'm anxious to talk about - but I have to wait, and, well, you know how I am with patience. Soon.
One more random thing for this disorganized post: I almost went catatonic yesterday. I was going to the ladie's room, and upon opening the door, my Crackberry went flying! (Yes, I take it to the restroom with me. Shut up.) I froze with fear as I watched it break into three pieces. I pounced on it and THANK THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY (I'm serious), I was able to put it back together. There are few things that give me joy right now, and losing "the precious" would tip me right over the edge.
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
Monday, February 02, 2009
SOMETHING OF HISTORIC PROPORTIONS IS HAPPENING
By Tim Wood 2008 December 1
I am a student of history. Professionally. I have written 15 books in six languages, and have studied history all my life. I think there is something monumentally large afoot and I do not believe it is just a banking crisis, a mortgage crisis or a credit crisis.
Yes these exist, but they are merely single facets on a very large gemstone that is only now coming into a sharper focus. Something of historic proportions is happening. I can sense it because I know how it feels, smells, what it looks like, and how people react to it. Yes, a perfect storm may be brewing, but there is something happening within our country that has been evolving for about ten - fifteen years. The pace has dramatically quickened in the past two years.
We demand and then codify into law the requirement that our banks make massive loans to people we know they can never pay back? Why?
We learned just days ago that the Federal Reserve, which has little or no real oversight by anyone, has "loaned" two trillion dollars (that is $2,000,000,000, 000) over the past few months, but will not tell us to whom or why or disclose the terms. That is our money, yours and mine.
And that is three times the 700 billion we all argued about so strenuously just this past September. Who has this money? Why do they have it? Why are the terms unavailable to us? Who asked for it? Who authorized it?
I thought this was a government of "we the people," who loaned our powers to our elected leaders. Apparently not, they now control us. We have spent two or more decades intentionally de-industrializing our economy. Why?
We have intentionally dumbed down our schools, ignored our history, and no longer teach our founding documents of why we are exceptional, and why we are worth preserving.
Students by and large cannot write, think critically, read, or articulate. Parents are not revolting, teachers are not picketing, and school boards continue to back mediocrity. Why?
We have now established the precedent of protesting every close election (now violently in California over proposition 8 that is so controversial that it wants marriage to remain between one man and one woman. Did you ever think such a thing possible just a decade ago?).
We have corrupted our sacred political process by allowing un-elected judges to write laws that radically change our way of life, and then mainstream Marxist groups like ACORN and others to turn our voting system into a banana republic. To what purpose?
Now our mortgage industry is collapsing, housing prices are in free fall, major industries are failing, our banking system is on the verge of collapse, social security is nearly bankrupt, as is Medicare and our entire government, our education system is worse than a joke (I teach college and know precisely what I am talking about) the list is staggering in its length, breadth, and depth. It is potentially 1929 x ten.
And we are at war with an enemy we cannot name for fear of offending people of the same religion, who cannot wait to slit the throats of your children if they have the opportunity to do so.
And now we have elected a man no one knows anything about, who has never run so much as a Dairy Queen, let alone a town as big as Wasilla, Alaska. All of his associations and alliances are with real radicals in their chosen fields of employment, religion and everything we learn about him, drip by drip, is unsettling if not downright scary (Surely you have heard him speak about his idea to create and fund a mandatory civilian defense force stronger than our military for use inside our borders? No? Oh, of course the media would never play that for you over and over and then demand he answer it. Sarah Palin's pregnant daughter and $150,000 wardrobe is more important.)
Mr. Obama's winning platform can be boiled down to one word: change. Why?
I have never been so afraid for my country and for my children as I am now. This man campaigned on bringing people together, something he has never, ever done in his professional life.
In my assessment, Obama will divide us along philosophical lines, push us apart, and then try to realign the pieces into a new and different power structure.
Change is indeed coming. And when it comes, you will never see the same nation again. And that is only the beginning to a world social government. I thought I would never be able to experience what the ordinary, moral German felt in the mid-1930's. In those times, the messiah was a former smooth-talking rabble-rouser from the streets, about whom the average German knew next to nothing. What they did know was that he was associated with groups that shouted, shoved, and pushed around people with whom they disagreed; he edged his way onto the political stage through great oratory and promises.
Economic times were tough, people were losing jobs, and he was a great speaker. And he smiled and waved a lot. And people, even newspapers, were afraid to speak out for fear that his "brown shirts" would bully them into submission.
And then, he was duly elected to office, a full-throttled economic crisis at hand [the Great Depression]. Slowly but surely he seized the controls of government power, department-by- department, person-by-person, bureaucracy- by-bureaucracy.
The kids joined a Youth Movement in his name, where they were taught what to think. How did he get the people on his side? He did it promising jobs to the jobless, money to the indigent, and goodies for the military-industrial complex.
He did it by indoctrinating the children, advocating gun control, health care for all, better wages, better jobs, and promising to re-instill pride once again in the country, across Europe, and across the world.
He did it with a compliant media; did you know that?
And he did this all in the name of justice and 'CHANGE'.
And the people surely got what they voted for. (Look it up if you think that I am exaggerating. )
Read your history books.
Many people objected in 1933 and were shouted down, called names, laughed at, and made fun of. When Winston Churchill pointed out the obvious in the late 1930's while seated in the House of Lords in England (he was not yet Prime Minister), he was booed into his seat and called a crazy troublemaker. He was right, though.
Don't forget that Germany was the most educated, cultured country in Europe. It was full of music, art, museums, hospitals, laboratories, and universities.
And in less than six years, a shorter time span than just two terms of a U.S. presidency, it was rounding up its own citizens, killing others, abrogating its laws, turning children against parents, and neighbors against neighbors, all with the best of intentions of course. The road to Hell is always paved with them.
As a practical thinker, one not overly prone to emotional decisions, I have a choice: I can either believe what the objective pieces of evidence tell me (even if they make me cringe with disgust); I can believe what history is shouting to me from across the chasm of seven decades; or I can hope I am wrong by closing my eyes, having another drink, and ignoring what is transpiring around me.
Some people scoff at me, others laugh, or think I am foolish, naive, or both. Perhaps I am. But I have never been afraid to look people in the eye and tell them exactly what I believe and why I believe it.
I pray I am wrong. Pray with me for the truth, because the truth will set us free.
Life does NOT obey our expectations and it does not care about our agenda. Life has an agenda of it's own and good luck going up against it.
How would we handle things if we could put fear aside? If you could do or say what you REALLY wanted to? How would that change your world?
Sometimes I really hate being alone with my thoughts. Don't you? Do you have things that dominate your thoughts like I do? Questions without answers, feelings that make no sense? Wanting to get up up out of bed, but feeling paralyzed in a way?
Yeah, me neither.