Monday, March 30, 2009

The movie was decent - I liked it. The fact that it was based on a true story made it intriguing to me - and a little more creepy.

And that is all I can think of to say. Seriously. I need some blogging motivation.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

This is my oooooo scary face. I'm on my way to go see "The Haunting in Connecticut"
Woke up to snow this morning. I'm curled up having my morning coffee thinking about stuff. I have to groom poor magadog today - she is soooo bad. I slept all say yesterday - I've been so damn tired. That virus really kicked my ass and I still don't know what to think about my new job.

Is my blogging exciting or what?? Sheesh.

Friday, March 27, 2009

A friend of mine sent me an email yesterday, and in trying to comfort me, said something I thought was very profound.

"Seek into the unknown and you might find it. Don't seek and life will remain the same."

I really thought about this and found it to be some of the best advice I've heard in a long time. Sometimes I can't figure out why I'm not happy - why I'm so depressed. I'm searching for something - and don't even know what I'm searching for half the time - but yet I need to not give up my search. Just keep going. Life is a journey of unknowns and you may or may not find what you are looking for, but you will be forever changed (and your life) in the process. Basically, don't give up. Push through. Don't try and get AROUND the depression or the hardship - go THROUGH it. It WILL CHANGE you, and life will change too. Nothing stays the same if you stay in motion...

What do you think?

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Things I just don't understand.

1. Why do people fear their boss? I want to do a good job as much as the next guy - but I'm not one to kiss ass or fear what my boss may or may not do to me. Fuck 'em.

2. When did it become cool to "hate" smokers? Do all of you "haters" promote that whole "tolerance" thing too? Cuz that seems about right...

3. Why are some people offended by off-beat humor? I can't live in that world.

4. Things/people many find attractive that I don't: Anybody from the movie "Twilight". Bleck. Super skinny women. I believe in curves.

5. Not being able to admit when you are wrong or apologize. Helloooooo? Believe it or not, there are lots out there. It baffles the shit outta me. I'm wrong about something, like, every 10 minutes.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009


Have you guys seen this Disney Pixar movie? OMG. Sooo cute. I'm not usually into cutsy kid's movies, but I had to watch this one because it had a dog in it. Best line from Rhino the hamster in the plastic playball: "I'm lightning quick, I have razor-sharp reflexes. Wha! And I'm a master of stealth." He also says stuff like "super awesome", which of of course makes me giggle.

I still love "Over the Hedge". Super awesome flick. :-)

Monday, March 23, 2009

I had the shit-fit of a lifetime when I saw the crackberry heading straight for the toilet in slow motion....NOOOOOOOOOOOO!

They just don't recover from water. I managed to get a new one without paying $450 bucks (crap!) so I'm ok now, but I pretty much wanted to die. I cannot be without a crackberry. I just
CAN'T. I think I would have sold a kidney to get another one. Seriously. I don't have many pleasures in life...but the crackberry keeps me going. LOL

Hey - I've lost some of my fans....where are you???? Come baaaack! I miss you!!! Why did you go? Has my blog started to suck? Did it always suck? Did I piss you off? Did I scare you? What will it take for you to come back? Whhaaaaaa....I'm crying. I'm lonely...Where art thou??

Sunday, March 22, 2009


I just dropped the crackberry in the toilet. FUCK!

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Mother nature hates me. Virus from hell, then period from hell. I'm so damn pissy. Of course, when am I happy? Pffft. There is something bugging me, too. But can I talk about it? No. Why would I be able to do that?

I am going to watch "Alien Raiders" now with Carlos Bernard. YUMMY! (Tony from 24). It just came out. I hope it is decent - the previews looked good. Then I'm going to watch "Bolt" - the cute dog movie.

Friday, March 20, 2009

Chicken noodle soup cures all. At least that's what I'm told. We'll see. ;-)

I was doing better, then last night sucked. I coughed ALL night resulting in no sleep and a raw throat. I'm at work now guzzling soup and tea. I'm having other issues, but I think you have heard enough for now.

Plans for the weekend include sleep, movies, sleep, cough syrup. (In the correct doses, mind you.) My boss said I looked stoned yesterday. LOL. Such a great thing to hear from your new boss. HAHA. Things are going ok, I just don't wanna work anymore and I get cranky about it sometimes. Well, I should say that I want to work on MY terms - not nothing at all. My terms this week would have been nill.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Okay, I worked 4 hours before I pooped out today. Progress. Somebody kill me. I really hope I'm not getting a pneumonia. Walking takes an extreme amount of effort, and then I have to sit down a lot as if I just ran a marathon. It's super fun.

There is absolutely nothing of interest to blog about.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

I'm still home sick. It has been AWFUL! I haven't been this sick since I was a kid. I also did something really REALLY stupid today. I OD'd on cough syrup. I am not joking. The doctor prescribed this new, really potent cough supressant that I think must be a hard core narcotic. The pharmacist was adamant about not taking more than one teaspoon every 10 hours, but I just figured it was like every other time they say that - which means nothing. I could drink a whole bottle of codeine cough syrup and just get a little sleepy. Not this time. I almost had to go to emergency. I took 2 teaspoons on an empty stomach and I started hallucinating, was dripping wet with sweat, shaking uncontrollably, and I couldn't think or talk right. I was SCARED. I was also nauseated and couldn't walk. NOT a fun high. I will never do that again!!! Damn!

Monday, March 16, 2009

I'm dying. My head is pounding, my fever is rising and my cough is rattling the windows. My eyes are glazed over and my ears are ringing. Bleh. Yeah, I'm thinking I need to reschedule Juice - so sorry. Next week ok? Don't even know if I'll be able to go to work tomorrow - which is stressing me out. I am not a good sick person.
I had a great time at Semiahmoo except for the part where I got BRONCHITIS. I KNOW. The first weekend away I get in eons, and I get sick. It started Saturday night, and by Sunday morning I was bed-ridden in the hotel room. DOG sick. Not only that, but I'm so dizzy today and my cough hurts so bad, that I had to call in sick at my job. I haven't even been there 3 weeks yet. How embarrassing. Ug. I'm going back to bed. I'm coughing up lung cheese presently. YUCK.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Going to Semiahmoo resort today and tomorrow with a girly friend of mine. It's near Canada right on Birch Bay. Beautiful!

Friday, March 13, 2009

There is nothing worse than almost running out of gas on the Evergreen Point Bridge, except actually running out of gas. I think there is a fine for it now...I was S.T.R.E.S.S.I.N.G. It will literally STOP traffic for hours and hours because there is nowhere to pull over, and there will be approximately 10,000 people wanting to KILL you. But I made it by the hair on my chinny chin chin. HOWEVER, I got turned around after filling up and went back the wrong direction over the bridge again, then had to turn around and go back over it a THIRD time because I am a dolt.

It is also fun dealing with IBS on a an hour and a half commute. UG.

TMI? Get over it. :)

Thursday, March 12, 2009

So yesterday I worked from 8 am to 1:30 am, then back to work at 8. This is why the blog is suffering. They are trying to kill me.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

I enjoyed this article. You may, or may not.

The Omega Letter Intelligence DigestVol: 13 Issue: 9 - Monday, March 09, 2009

OK- Now The Sky is Falling . .
In September of last year when Lehman Brothers filed for what was then the biggest bankruptcy in the United States, the Dow dropped a whopping 504 points.
On that same day in September, Senator John McCain lost the 2008 Election with these words: "the fundamentals of our economy are strong."
Ironically, McCain was right. The 'fundamentals' of our economy didn't change -- a better word description might be to say the fundamentals of the economy were exposed. America discovered that it had been mugged.
And like an angry mugging victim thirsty for revenge, it lashed out as much at the cop on the beat for not preventing it as it did the muggers.
The muggers became linked in the public mind with the Republicans - something the Dems had been cultivating since the Pelosi/Reid takeover of Congress in 2006.
One can argue all day about how the Republicans are responsible and how Obama inherited a bad economy, but the facts are neither Republican or Democrat.
When Nancy Pelosi and Harry Reid announced in 2006 that they were going to fix the "Bush economy" the "Bush economy" had enjoyed more than 55 months of steady growth.
When the new Congress was seated, the Dow was celebrating the recovery of all its losses since 9/11, closing above 11,000 for the first time since. This isn't partisan stuff, this is history.
In January, 2006, George Bush was a lame-duck president presiding over a Congress dominated by the other party. It was after Pelosi/Reid seized the majority and started fixing the Bush economy that it began to roll over, not before.
It doesn't matter what political party one belongs to, the history is still the same.
If there was a first domino that set all the rest of them in motion, it was pushed over after control of the Congress was handed to Nancy Pelosi and Harry Reid.
The Democrats began running for president long before they had a candidate, and they said from the beginning that their strategy was to focus on the 'Bush' economy -- which, as noted, was up to that time in pretty good shape.
Here's the thing to understand about the US economy. It isn't a 'thing'. It isn't a person. It is you and me. It rises or falls depending on how much confidence we have in it.
If I don't think my money is going to be safe if I leave it in the stock market, then logically, I am going to take it out and put it somewhere less risky.
So if somebody I admire and trust (like my Congressional leaders) tell me that the market is about to tank, and someone I've grown to despise and distrust (Evil Bush) says the market is safe, I have two reasons to pull my money out.
The first is to protect my investment. The second is to poke my thumb into the eye of somebody I hate (Evil Bush).
Multiply me times all the Evil Bush-haters that both feared for their wealth and enjoyed making Bush look bad who pulled out of the market and you have the beginnings of a recession.
After awhile, even those less enamored of Pelosi/Reid and less distrustful of Evil Bush are going to worry about their 401ks and rethink their exposure on the stock market. Which makes the numbers shakier and a recession more likely.
Keep shaking confidence by attacking the 'Bush recession' during the election campaign and the market will keep going down. Now here is where politics plays a role.
The Left campaigns mainly on handouts to the poor and taxes on the 'rich'. Let's define 'rich' and 'poor' as is applied in political theory.
'Rich' means white, middle-aged working professional couples, with no kids still at home.
(To the taxman, grandparents backed by a lifetime of investments and purchases are 'rich' -- even if they earn no more than a working couple just starting out.)
By our mid-50's we're as professional as we're gonna get, and we're making about as much as we can ever hope to, which we are trying our best to make stretch into our retirement.
'Poor' means single-parent families on food stamps, young parents still learning their skills earning entry-level salaries, and two-parent unskilled working couples with children.
There are more poor people who want handouts than there are 'rich' who want to fund them, the more the Left can demonize the 'rich' the more votes they can get from the poor.
That is not partisan politics. It is accepted political theory as was applied in recent political history.
When the 'rich' realized that the next likely president was going to be an ardent socialist, the 'rich' started yanking their retirement funds out of the stock market and steering them into what they hoped were safer investment vehicles.
All through the presidential campaign season, the market unravelled as nervous investors pulled out enough money to expose the crooks in the system. In August, Barack Hussein Obama secured the nomination for president.
In September, the unemployment rate jumped to its highest level in 5 years. As Obama began to outline his economic plans, more and more investors fled the market. By mid-October, it was going into free-fall.
On the day Obama was elected, the market had fallen from its peak of 11,000 when the Dems took over Congress to just over 9,000. By Inauguration Day, it had fallen to 8,000.
It has fallen by 1,400 points per week for every week Obama has been in office. If it continues to fall at the current rate it will be at zero before the end of April.
What is curious about this is the fact that Obama continues to talk down the economy, knowing the effect his words are having. If the President STILL says your retirement money isn't safe in the market, what do you do? And what effect does that have on the market?
So, WHY is he still slamming the economy?
Obama -- or his advisors, know the history of American recessions and how Americans get out of them. Or deeper into them. Higher taxes and increased government spending have the same effect on a national economy as compensating for a pay cut by spending more on your credit cards.
Nations can't borrow their way out of debt any more than individuals can. He knows that. So he is proposing a ten-fold increase in spending, funded by borrowing from the future and taxing present wealth, knowing it will only make things worse.
What is the end game? Rahm Emmanuel explained it over the weekend on TV. "You never want a serious crisis to go to waste. What I mean by that is it's an opportunity to do things that you think you could not do before."
Especially a crisis that was more than two years in the making. It's already paid off -- big time -- so why rein things in now?
Things are just starting to go their way.

I woke up this morning with this "Yes" song in my head - "Shoot High, Aim Low". I downloaded it a few years ago, but haven't really listened to it since college. I have no idea what brought it into my head - I don't recall dreaming about it, but maybe some memory was sparked. It is a good song, but an obscure one that you don't hear often; not in stores or on T.V. or anything. I woke up singing it and I knew the lyrics - which is bizarre because not only do I never remember lyrics even to my favorite songs, I never knew the lyrics to this one at all. BIZARRE. So I burned my copy to cd and listened to it in the car on my commute in.

We hit the blue fields
In the blue sedan we didn't get much further
Just as the sun was rising in the mist
We were all alone we didn't need much more
So fast this expedition
So vast this heavy load
With a touch of luck and a sense of need
Seeing the guns and their faces
We look around the open shore
Waiting for something

Shoot high break low
Aim high shoot low
Break high let go
Shoot high aim low

This was to be our last ride
With the steel guitar and the love you give me
Underneath the skin a feeling, a breakdown
Well we sat for hours on the crimson sand
Exchanges in the currency of humans bought and sold
And the leaders seem to lose control
Shall we lose ourselves for a reason
Shall we burn ourselves for the answer
Have we found the place that we're looking for
Someone shouted "open the door"

Shoot high break low
Aim high shoot low
Feeling of imagination
Break high let go
Shoot high aim low
Shoot high aim low
Nothing you can say
Shoot high let go
Takes me by surprise
Shoot high aim low

Who says's there's got to be a reason
Shoot high let go
Who says there's got to be an answer
We were all alone, we didn't need much more
Shoot high aim low
The sun's so hard on this endless highway
Shoot high let go
Shoot high aim low
I've heard the singers, who sing of love
Shoot high let go

In the blue sedan we never got much further
Shoot high aim low

Monday, March 09, 2009

America is collapsing, my friends. It is happening before our very eyes. It is not a theory or a speculation of mine. Most Americans do not comprehend the scope or magnitude of this crisis. But they soon will. The dollar is going to collapse. It is possible Obama will have to declare Martial Law before the end of 2009. You may not believe it, you may be optimistic and thinking all of this is temporary, but it is not. I'm sorry. We are going down, and we are going down fast. It makes me sad. Prepare yourselves. Prepare mentally, physically and spiritually. If you do not, you will be in shock. I'm warning you - please listen! I get info from so many different sources. Credible sources. They have not steered me wrong yet. Not only that, but my soul can feel it also. Can you feel it? Can you feel that something is very, very wrong? More than any other time in your life with regards to the State of the Union? Listen to your gut.

Sunday, March 08, 2009

Right now I'm trying to figure out what the point in blogging is. I guess I'm trying to figure out the point in a lot of things right now.

Saturday, March 07, 2009

It sucked. Damn it. The first one had so much awesomness and they lost it after that.
OKAY, it's snowing and I'm all curled up on the couch about to watch "Feast 3". LOVED Feast 1, 2 was pretty now for the grand finale. Seriously though, if you haven't seen the original Feast - go rent it RIGHT NOW. Review later. :-)

Friday, March 06, 2009

Not so deep

My posts have been a little shallow lately because my brain has been fried. I go home at night and crash; I haven't even been watching my shows. I get up, go to work, eat a little something, and go to bed. That is pretty much life right now with the exception that I went to dinner with my mom last night. I'm beat. Tired. Not much of a life, huh? Yeah. I know. I feel like many things are out of my control right now, so I'm operating in robot mode - yet trying to learn my job. The future seems muddled; uncertain; ominous.

Thursday, March 05, 2009

You know, Applebee's isn't half bad! I am here for the first time with mom. The spinach and artichoke dip rocks! I thought it was like a Denny's or something.
I wanted to stick sharp things into my eyeballs at work today, but I am getting the hang of things.

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Top Ramen for lunch dues.... (Dues=Dudes)

I'm frustrated today, (already), so I'll just post these random little Seattle pics I took on the walk to my building this morning. Enjoy. I need coffee and chocolate of some sort. Stat.

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

I love being able to close my office door and have absolute silence. It is nice. I have so much reading to do, and the solitude helps me get it done faster.

I'm still feeling out of place, but that will just take time I guess. You know how you feel when you are missing someone? That is the best way to describe how I feel. A little lonely, a little displaced. My other jobs afforded me comfort in that I hit the ground running on the first day - but that was a rare luxury I now know. What I am doing here is not that difficult in the grand scheme of things, but I do have some challenges ahead of me for producing change when people don't know me.

I am much more tired at the end of my days here, that's for sure.

My personal life? I'm still battling the same demons - they never seem to get tired - but I'm pushing through the best I can.

Monday, March 02, 2009

Trying to work through the funk

I'm trying to keep myself busy and not take so many naps on the weekend. It is hard. I did manage to start working on my home office project - but now the rest of the house is a mess. Arg!

I'm going to have a busy week at work reading procedures and learning the ropes. My boss is out of town, so it will be extra difficult. I actually brought in some personal items for my desk today - which was a feat with the hike I have to do. (Have I complained about that enough yet?) I still need flowers or a plant or something. I also forgot my lunch today so I get to go wandering around Seattle today looking for food. Maybe I'll take a pic or two. I am so completely out of my comfort zone that it is a little amusing.

Sunday, March 01, 2009

Project office goes forward. I no longer have piles and piles of stuff and boxes on the floor (see pic from before), I put a bunch of clutter into the garage sale pile, I sorted through junk and papers and purged them - and vacuumed and dusted. I'm tired now.

The next step is picking out colors and painting, then designing a desk/bookshelf to build because the one I have is garbage. One thing at a time.