Monday, February 02, 2009

Screw today. I did not get a damn thing accomplished this weekend. I have so many projects I need to work on - back up my hard drive, organize my digital pictures, clean out my closet and get rid of clothes, finish painting, clean out the refrigerator and pantry, groom the dogs, the list goes on and on and on. I'm feeling unmotivated. I feel as though the life energy has been sucked out of my soul. How do you get that back? How do you crawl out of Satan's colon? I want to beat my own head against a wall, then shake the shit out of other people who are not cooperating with me. There are things that are bugging me. B.U.G.G.I.N.G me. Things that do NOT add up or make sense. I used to think the world was black and white - it either IS or it ISN'T. But ya know? Not that simple. You can assume things are that way - but there always seems to be some unexplained elements. Some things that throw a monkey wrench in the whole theory.

Life does NOT obey our expectations and it does not care about our agenda. Life has an agenda of it's own and good luck going up against it.

How would we handle things if we could put fear aside? If you could do or say what you REALLY wanted to? How would that change your world?

2 comments:

Ann(ie) said...

i do say what I want to and its liberating My friend. At one point I said fuck it and stopped holding back. Try it~ you'll dig it.

Cheryl said...

I'd probably get off'd.