Thursday, January 08, 2009

Something is wrong...

I have been sooo tired lately. I get home from work and collapse before 9 pm - sometimes as soon as I get home at 4:30 pm. I'm getting 8 hours of sleep or more and am still tired the next day - and I don't recall tossing and turning like I usually do. I haven't had any alcohol lately. No sleeping pills. My anxiety is up, which is all I can think of. I still get dry heaves with my anxiety. WTF? I have been to 3 specialists, and they can't find anything physically wrong with me - except that I get anxiety, which is no surprise with everything that has gone on, and is going on with my life. I have temporary anxiety meds, but I've been taking them awhile and this tired thing is new. It is impossible for me to be pregnant and I've been to the doctor many times and they come up with nothing. Am I losing it? Is it just stress? I don't feel particularly stressed, although there are some things bothering me. Is it depression? I'm trying to just put things in the past and move forward, but maybe I have lived with it for so long I don't know how to feel any different. I don't know. This sucks. Somebody take me to the Bahamas, will ya? Shit.

3 comments:

Ann(ie) said...

Might be depression, girlie. I have a SIL who will diagnose people's mental conditions free of charge and then post it on the internet...want me to enlist her help with your problems????

Ann(ie) said...

Come to Hawaii with us in March!! It's seriously what's getting me thru these icky grey months.

Crazydogmama said...

Um...I am seriously going to consider that!!!! I've never been to Hawaii! And about your SIL? Um, no, but thanks!

Yeah, probably depression. You know what I'm going thru. Sigh.