Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Stressville

OK, really, I'm trying NOT to stress. There is nothing I can do about it. I keep telling myself this. I honestly can't say much (non-disclosure stuff), but I may be laid off before the end of the month. It would have nothing to do with my performance - but the economy/market. I have no idea what I will do because the job market sucks right now and my field is very narrow. I really do believe things happen for a reason (when it is beyond your control) so I'm trying to think of it as fate - whatever happens. With everything I've gone through in the last year, it kind of feels like a sucker-punch, but maybe it would be a blessing in disguise. Who knows. It is the not-knowing that is the worst part.

I have never been without a job. I have never collected unemployment. I haven't had more than 2 weeks off in a row since I was 16 years old - and I'll be 37 in November. I don't know how to feel right now. My whole life has gone AWOL in the last year. Guess it was time to shake things up! It is amazing to me how so many things can happen in such a short amount of time - or how the littlest things can throw your life off balance. I have recently experienced feelings I don't know what to do with, and emotions I didn't know existed. I've had many sleepless nights and panic attacks. Now that I've learned how to deal with all of that, I think I may be ready for whatever it is I was being prepared for. The refiner's fire.

I'm far from getting into this outfit, but...

4 comments:

Whiney Momma said...

Sorry to hear about that job situation. It seems to be everywhere, my sister's company is laying off right and left too. I will keep my fingers crossed for you; maybe it won't be quite as bad as it seems.

Crazydogmama said...

Thanks - I have this gut feeling everything will be ok no matter which way it goes. I'm trying to remain calm about it.

Kim said...

You have had a craptastic year, but I truly believe everything does happen for a reason. Maybe now is a good time to start checking the want ads in San Antonio? Peace.

Cheryl said...

Perhaps it is a good time to start looking there. I kinda need my stock payout, though, which I still will get, but not until the company sells.