Monday, September 01, 2008

I'm poopy today. Depressed. Something new for me. I'm curled up in a little ball trying to keep warm with the crackberry. Even going tanning, my tan is fading and I'm looking less and less like a California girl. Back to looking like I live in a batcave. I just ate a whole bunch of cookies. Not good. Shit.

Yesterday I was trying to figure out what to do with my life. There are many ways I could go. Some doors get slammed in your face (especially me) but there are other doors opening? Maybe? Maybe Texas is where I'm supposed to go? I don't know anyone there. Talk about scary. Facing a new world like that. But it could be really, really good. I thought about what kind of work I would enjoy. I want to be my own boss. I don't want anyone telling me when I can and can't blog. LOL. I actually thought about something interesting. Owning my own coffee house. I would be good at it, and, well, you know how I feel about coffee...and then once that was running smoothly, I could write.

Just getting some thoughts out.

Sidenote: I just noticed the Governor of Texas is kinda hot. Hehe.


Anonymous said...

For should AT THE LEAST go and visit Texas before you make ANY decision about moving there. There are some really great things about TX ...low housing costs, good job $$. I've always said it's a good place to make a living but a horrible place to make a LIFE. Being outdoors is not what you think. It's very hot and very humid and you will have to get used to very high energy costs. You run your A/C from april until october, non stop and 24/7. It's not the kind of place where you can open the windows and expect the house to cooldown overnight...even up in San Antonio or the hill country (Austin). Our last electric bill in Houston was almost 500$ for July 2006.

Winters are mild but there are no true "seasons". No fall color, no real spring. Leaves go brown and fall off in February. It's pretty much summer and then mild winters. We never once went camping or hiking in our 13 years of living there. Mosquitos are rampant and cockroaches the norm. Even in the cleanest home.

Flooding is a real issue. Even if you don't live near the coast rain events can flood most parts of the state. Be prepared to purchase flood insurance. Or live in perpetual fear of losing everything to feet of water.

Political climate is very's also the bible belt but maybe that doesn't mean so much to you. Recycling and environmental efforts are *nill*. People throw their beer cans AWAY! They throw everything away.

I say go visit. First and foremost. Don't give up on can always get an apartment or a condo at first and trade up into a house over time. That is what most people do anyway. IMHO California gives a much better living climate, both in weather and in political/cultural/landscape options. ~Nichole

Cheryl said...

Hey Nichole -

I would for SURE visit several times and probably stay for awhile to determine things. Texas is definitely NOT my first choice. I have limited options with no help on housing - that was my primary thing. Did you know that it costs 1800 dollars a month for a 1 bedroom APARTMENT in the area I like? FUCK!! I've thought about putting money down on a condo, but I would never be able to afford a house with a pool unless I won the lotto. Why do think I'm depressed?? I feel like I'm stuck no matter what I do. And I don't know what's the matter with my mother.

Anonymous said... may not be as stuck as you think. Washington is a great state to live in. Why not try and capitalize on that a little more? Get out on the weekends. Nature. Camping. Hiking. Picnic. Take up skiing or boarding in the winter..or just try renting snow shoes and get out in the cold when it's here. I know you want a pool, I had one and frankly I think they are over rated. A lot of work and $$. Tanning isn't the best thing for our skin anyway.

I'll go out on a limb and say that *anywhere* in the pacific northwest beats Texas on it's BEST day. Truly. Make the most of what you have :) ~nichole

Cheryl said...

I know what you are saying - it is beautiful here, there are just so many reasons why I want to leave that I can't get into. I really have more of a heart for Cali, but I really don't know what will happen to me. I can't ski/snowboard anymore because of my knees (I used to love it) and since I've lived here most of my life I pretty much HATE camping anymore. I just love the beach and the warmer weather more than I thought, and things like Disneyland are so much fun for me. When I was there I felt better about myself (I don't know why) and wanted to take better care of myself. Here, I want to die. It's weird. I just sleep and do nothing. I am taking what you said into account, for sure, I just don't know what to do. I know you take your problems with you, I'm not stupid, its just everyone seems to have a strong opinion about this - and everything else in my life for that matter. What is true is that I will be out of a job soon with lots of stock and need to make some decisions.