Saturday, July 05, 2008

I feel like caca

I went and helped a friend today - and she is in bad shape like many of the rest of us. I just don't know what is happening - everywhere I turn, someone is going through hell. I got two more emails from friends in "dark places". I am feeling dark myself. I think I took too many anxiety pills yesterday. Someone could have blown up the house and I wouldn't have cared. Being numb is NOT good, though. However, sometimes feeling hopeless is just too much. I came home and collapsed - and I haven't even eaten. The friend I went and helped is feeling very overwhelmed, and I am feeling much the same way with all that is in front of me. The sad leading the sad is worse than the blind leading the blind...LOL.

It is weird when you are in a funk - no matter how many people you have around you, you still feel alone. I know some of you guys out there are feeling that right now. Intense aloneness.

I have no wisdom at the moment.

1 comment:

Ann(ie) said...

I know many going through a rough spot now, too. Doesn't help that everything costs a fortune, our wages are not going up and that people suck in general. ug. I am looking forward to my beach vacation and escaping it all for a while. I will have a drink in hand at all times, just FYI.