Monday, July 21, 2008

The Countdown and other stuff

TWELVE days, people, TWELVE days until I am on vacation! Pray a meteor doesn’t hit or something before I go - I feel like I’ve been crawling around in the desert and now I’m getting close to the oasis; dehydrated and moaning. Dang, I won’t know how to act on vacation.

Question for Juice (or anyone who might know): How do you post pics on Blogger with your blackberry? If I take pics with my phone, I can access them, and it says “uploading pic”, but it never actually does. FRUSTRATING. I may just have to wait to post pics until I get back. I don’t have that kind of patience. If anyone has the magic, let me know.

About this morning’s post…

Sometimes when I look at myself in the mirror – I don’t recognize my own face. It is really strange. How I see myself without the mirror is different than the actual reflection. I like my head picture better. I’ve changed a lot in the last 10 years – physically, mentally and emotionally. You could say it is natural maturation, but it’s more than that. It is more like a complete metamorphosis – or at least it feels like it. Everything I said I wouldn’t let happen, happened – even down to having a “desk job”. I remember telling myself I would never sit at a damn desk all day! HA. I also said I would never get fat, I would never get married young…blah, blah, blah. It goes to show you, you just CANNOT predict these things. But now that I’m here….what?
Anyway, I’m going all over the place with this post. I need to collect my thoughts and re-group.


Anonymous said...

what I find looking at myself in old photos. Photos where I thought I looked fat, or had bad hair or whatever. Now I look and go WHAT? was I THINKING?????? I looked awesome. So looking in the mirror now when I criticize myself it kinda scares me because I soooo fear looking back in 10 more years and saying what was I thinking? My point? See yourself DIFFERENTLY. POSITIVELY. NO MATTER WHAT :) It wastes too much time not doing that ;) Luv ya Cheryl... ~yogagirl

Crazydogmama said...

You have a good point, Yogagirl. It is a waste of time dwelling on the negative. I'm not even sure if what I'm feeling is really negative, or if I'm just "puzzled". Its like I'm thinking "What do I do now, with what I am - and who I am?"

Maybe I'm having a midlife crisis. LOL.